Stephanie - posted on 05/03/2009 ( 4 moms have responded )
It is amazing how one single moment can change a person's outlook on life COMPLETELY!
Walking into my daughter's room & finding her not breathing was MY MOMENT!
First, i'd like to say THANK YOU LORD for my beautiful children!
I realize that I have not been thankful lately & for that... I AM SO SORRY!
For EVERY second that I have spent complaining about my children.... I vow to spend 2 seconds praising God for them!
Here is what happened.....
My husband got home from a VERY long day at work yesterday. Here is the thing.... The day was not long for him, but for me! I was in the need of some SERIOUS quiet time! The kids were driving me nuts! So, my husband gets home & decided to get on the computer & completely ignore that I needed help with the kids "What else is new?" I thought to myself! Than, after about 2 hours messing around online, he decides to retreat to the bathroom for a nice, soothing, relaxing, warm shower..... "Must be nice!" I thought to myself!
At this point I WAS FUMING! Has he even noticed how tired I have been lately? I have an infant that eats every 4 hours... Quality sleep is non-existant in my dictionary!
So anyways.... I lay my 3 month old daughter in her crib & walk out of the room (pretty much stalking my husband in his shower to "tell him" how I feel about his LACK OF help with the kids lately!) The intire time that I spent SCREAMING at him in the bathroom (trying to ruin his nice, relaxing, warm shower), I kept hearing myself think " This is going nowhere! What a waste of time! All you are doing is starting a fight!"....... blah, blah, blah! I couldn't help, but feel sorry for myself! I've done that A LOT in the past few months!
My life just hasn't been the same since my 3rd child was born. She was due March 12th 2009, but my water broke on January 17th. I was rushed to the nearest hospital with an NICU, where I sat for 2 weeks on STRICT bedrest! As if that wasn't aweful enough..... I found out that my step brother (my dady's g/f's 12 year old son) molested my 4 year old son! What do ou do in that situation? I tell you what..... I WANTED DESPERATELY to get out of my hospital bed & take the NEAREST bus to his house & cut his smallest LEAST USEFUL appendage right off of his body!!!!
My beautiful 4 year old son whose innocence was stolen away by my sicko 12 year old step-brother!
BUT.... DAILY... the doctors & nursing staff reminded me of the importance of bedrest for my un-born child! So, here I was... Stuck between a rick & a hard spot! Do I go against everybit of medical advice i've been given & go home to my 4 year old son to care for him properly.... OR... do I sit in this damn hospital bed & just hold onto the minimul amount of hope that I had that my husband would properly care for my son at this point.....
So, I reluctantly stayed in bed.... Long story, short... I gave birth to Kaylee Lynn on Feb. 1st. 5lbs. 1oz. 17 inches long! My tiny baby girl was beautiful! I wanted to hold her & NEVER let her go! That dream was short lived as she was RUSHED into the NICU. Kaylee was 6 weeks premature & had under-developed lungs.
Have you ever left your child in a hospital alone, trusting them to the care of doctors & nurses that you've NEVER met before this day?!? If you havn't... I pray that you NEVER HAVE TO! If you have... God bless your heart for going through it! 21 VERY LONG days later & about 7 REALLY CRAPPY NICU NURSES.... I finally brought my baby girl & her lung monitor home with me! That monitor was a PAIN IN THE BUTT at the least! It was heavy & big, & LOUD!
BUT... It sure gave me a peace of mind... I could sleep peacefully, knowing that if she stopped breathing... It would beep the most annoying beep in the world, until I revived her! Thankfully it never went off & 6 weeks later, her DR. discontinued the use of her machine. (I still havn't returned it to the company who rented it to us!)
Anyways.... Back to last night.... I was in the bathroom ruining every moment of my husband's shower for OVER 30 minutes, when I had this unsettling feeling that I should check on Kaylee.... I ignored it for a few seconds & than COULD NOT ignore it anymore.... It was as if someone grabbed my by my shoulders & PUSHED me into the room she was sleeping in.
I turned on the bedreem light & there she was... Her hat (which was a little bit too big on her) had slid down over her nose & mouth! I removed the hat from her face.... An image that I will NEVER forget....... White skin, cold to the touch, clammy, foaming at the mouth & BARELY struggling to breath what might have been her last few breaths, had I not walked in at that very moment!
I picked her up & grabbed her nose suctioner & used it to clear her throat & nose of "foam".
Who would have ever thought of this? Would you EVER think that a simple baby cap could be dangerous? I lay my child in her crib, on her back, with no pillows or blankies, I NEVER co-sleep.... YET...... I walk into her room & find her SECONDS from death....
ALL BECAUSE OF A BABY HAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The hate was a knitted hat that folded up twice, because it was too long for her.
Of course, I removed the hat & cleared her airway of foam & cradled her in my arms until her color came back to her face! I sat there.... & sat there.... & sat there..... THANK YOU LORD FOR MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN!
I promised him at that very moment that I would NOT spend my days feeling sorry for myself ANYMORE! These children might be a handful & may not be appreciative of the things I do for them, but.... WHO CARES??? I have my 3 healthy, beautiful babies! 3 VERY AWESOME GIFTS FROM GOD!
Please ladies.... Pass this on... Whatever you have to do to inform other mothers of the danger of baby hats that are a little bit too big on your babies!!!
I TRUELY hope that this post reaches ALL parts of the world & no mother EVER has to walk into the horrifying scene of their infant baby being smothered by their baby cap!!!!!!!