Kimberley - posted on 02/22/2009 ( 5 moms have responded )
Hi everyone my name is Kim and i am a mom of 2 beautiful children, my daughter is Ashley and she is 8 yrs old and my son is James and he is 7yrs old. I was diagnosed in 2006 with this dissorder. I had recently suffered a loss in my family and had not been feeling myself. I had previously been dianosed with depression before hand. Anyhow after suffering such a loss of my dear cousin, who was 6 months older then myself i started having these spells that would come and go. They would consist of my heart racing and beating rapily out of my chest, chest pains, hard time breathing and catching a good breath, trouble sleeping and being afraid of the dark, sweaty palms, dizziness and tingling at the top of my head, the feeling of passing out. Anyhow this started about a week after my cousin had passed and i couldn't understand at the time why i was having these spells. My family doctor said that i was having anxiety attacks and panic attacks, and changed my meds and gave me meds to take for the attacks. The doctor also told me i should see a therapist, for someone to talk to and get more in sight for what im going through. So i did, and still seeing one. 3 yrs and i'm still suffering this dissorder, i've been told that i may have this my whole life. You learn different ways to control attacks but the reason i started this community was because its something that not many people talk about, and it is something that does effect you as a person most diffinitly but it effects the people around you also. For example when i take these attacks and im not feeling myself, its sad to say but so dearly true i have no ambition to interact with my kids or anyone else for that matter. It totally distances you from everyone, i've been doing really well for the last year. Not having any bad thoughts or my mind running a mile a minute, nor having the feelings of an attack. Recently 2 weeks ago i went to the hospital with my parents for their colonoscopy. Which results came back that my mother had a 40 cm tumor in her lower colon, My mother had to go see a surgoen, which i myself again took her to that appointment. When we got inside the room it didn't take long too see the look on the dr's face. I knew it wasn't gonna be good news, we found out that afternoon that my mother has colon cancer and they didn't know what stage it was and that she needs surgery. Surgery is booked for March 17th, we'll have the luck of the Irish with us that day.
Point of this little story is once hearing those words coming out of the dr's mouth, i instantly went into a pain attack. With that having been said, my husband has missed that last 2 weeks of work because of my dissorder, because i can't control my attacks again, can't get up in time to take the kids to school because either i haven't slept or very little sleep. I'm wanting to get some help as i know i'm not the only one in the world with this dissorder and being a parent. Looking for some people to talk to and discuss our children and families and us..... Anyone got any ideas on how i may get over being afraid of the dark at 27 yrs of age and start enjoying my kids again as a result of this bad news???