Chris - posted on 11/23/2009 ( 4 moms have responded )
Hi, I'm just curious if any one else faced this. When I was 7m pregnant my husband was away alot and in alot of pressure from his family about things they thot were wrong in our lives/family. It caused him to have a mental breakdown and was found by the cops very disoriented and they held him over the weekend (we couldn't get him released until monday and it was friday nite of course!) So I spent 3 lonely days by myself not knowing where he was or how he was doing. I wasn't even allowed to visit. After we got him back on Monday we could see that things weren't right, we brought him to the hospital on Tuesday and he was admitted to the mental/psych part of the hospital. He was there for over 2 wks. During that whole time I was only allowed to see him 1/2hr during the day and 1 hr in the evening. So fat ol' me had to climb into our truck and drive the snowy roads 30min twice a day to see him. When he was finally released he was on such sedating medication that it took over a year for him to return to normal. That was Jan/Feb. In April I was due, and was a few days late, and my doc induced me. I was already in labor all night long but it wasn't "regular" enough for them. When I was only 8cm my doc told me to start pushing and I pushed over 2 hrs without ever engaging my baby's head. So I ended up having an emergency c-section. I was so exhausted I could barely move. And the contractions were still so hard and painful. I had to straddle a bench so they could put in the drug that numbed me (ah blessed quietness!) But because of that, I started shaking and was so freezing cold. They piled my upper body with warm towels... Finally our little girl was born. The relief of hearing that first cry was overwhelming. It was finally over. We had to stay in the hospital for 3 days because I had a fever. During all this my poor hubby was still hardly himself. Once released we went home and the nurse called me about 2 hrs later and told me the baby's jaundice levels were up and we had to come back in. Our daughter had to be in a bili-bed thing, with nothing on but a diaper and eye covers. I could only hold her while I fed her. They came in a few times a day to prick her tiny feet for blood. I was in so much pain still from the c-section and I couldn't even relax. My legs swelled all the way to my knees. One night I actually was so exhausted I slept thru my next medication and woke up in the worst pain. I cried from 7am straight thru til noon when my parents came. My husband would sleep til about 1pm and he would be back out again about 7pm. It was just so much for me to handle and go through. When I think back on it and think about having another baby I just really get scared and terrified. I can't even fathom going thru that again. Our little girl is now 19m and we do want more kids eventually. I truly am scared to death to get pregnant again. My husband is really good with it and says that he is willing to wait until I'm ready. I'm just not sure I ever really will be. Has anyone else ever been scared and how did you get over it?