Brenda - posted on 02/11/2010 ( 16 moms have responded )
So I'm feeling a tad bit guilty. As I hit the nine month nursing mark yesterday, I look at my older son who got only four weeks and feel horribly guilty that I didn't try harder. I know that I did what I could in that situation, and boy if I knew then what I know now, I would have never stopped nursing. And since Nick is crib free, I'm feeling a bit guilty that poor Nathan had to sleep in the crib until he was two because I didn't think there was another way. And I wonder if he would have less anxiety and fear if I had coslept with him from the beginning. My husbands been on me that he needs to sleep in his bed again, and it is just not going to happen anytime soon because he is so scared to be in there alone. The other night he refused to even sleep until I laid beside him and he could "feel me". I told my husband and he said "That's just dumb". *sigh* So yeah. Kinda bothers me these days... I mean, there isn't anything to be done now, but I feel like I did it "wrong" with him, and I'm doing it "right" with Nick, as if there is something that I'll never be able to fix.