Sarah - posted on 02/05/2010 ( 4 moms have responded )
Hey you there...yes...you!
I just wanted to stop for a minute and say thank you. Thank you for everything you do on a daily bases. I know raising a child on the spectrum is hard, but you do it. Somedays I can imagine that you don't do it with a smile on your face or a song in your heart, but you do do it. Why some may ask, and I'm sure we all have different answers, but I think we can all unite in one way, we love our children. So thank you. Thank you for loving your son(s)/daughter(s) enough to put up with it all. The tantrums, the self-stimming, the sensory meltdowns, the communication road blocks, the lack of sleep, the crazy diets, the supplements, the doctor appointments, all the therapies away from home, all the therapy you do yourself in your home, schooling, medication, and more and more.
If your like me you live for those small moments where you get a smile, a hug, a kiss, a laugh, a "ah ha!" moment where things fall into place. I hope you get one of those today, or heck...a few! Stop doubting yourself for a minute ok? Next time you pass a mirror stop for a second. Don't look for those flaws I know you'll search for, bags under your eyes, lines and wrinkles, stop looking at that. Instead look at yourself. Remember, you are molding a person, someone who will one day be an adult, and because of all your hard work that adult is going to be the best that they can be. Does that mean they will fit into the "normal" mold, probably not, but does that mean they are less? Heck no! So smile at yourself, take a deep breath and remember that sometimes we have to take each moment one step at a time.
Don't forget to stop and hug the heck out of your kids if they will let you. I like to grab mine when she isn't expecting it so she can't run away. It never lasts long, but it's always long enough, and that is one of those moments I live for. I hope you get your hug today.
Thanks again...keep it up...and if you start to doubt yourself again...come back...someone here will have a story to share, or a shoulder to spare. We've all been through it somehow, and together we can see the light on the other side.