Mel - posted on 12/21/2009 ( 8 moms have responded )
My son is 5 and we are in the process of diagnosing him. I am finding out that it is a very lengthy comlicated and delicate matter, but im grateful for that because it means that the Docs are really looking into his ;problems; So he has been disgnosed so far with Sensory Processing Disorder and in a while we will be seeing the head of peadiatrics at the hospital about Ethan. Apprarantly he is a 'unique' case. Great. That helps! Im struggling on all levels with Ethan becuase yes he is disruptive, loud, has violent tantrums, doesnt EVER STOP TALKING, is hyper sensitive,smears his poo, pees around the home and all of this makes life hard on a daily basis. I have another wee boy who is 2 and a half and is copying all of ethans beaviours. On a daily basis i fell like such a bad mum because I think about how life woould be if I could jsut run away for a while. Or I even get angry with in myself at Ethan and just so frustrated because even tho we are getting diagnosis its not helping me or him. He is still behaving the same way and then there are new behaviours coming out. I feel stretched beyond my limits and feel so utterly selfish that I feel this way. None of my friends understand and my husband just thinks im being moody. I love my children so very much and would give my own life for them if i had too, but at the moment, this Autism/Aspergers/what ever it is, is totally ruling our lives and its scary because i am finding it hard to enjoy the small things at the moment. DOes anyone feel like this? What can i do to make my days less stressful so that i am a better mum to them both. I dont know hot to ebate the situation it seems as soon as i open my mouth the speak wtih ethan he gets angry, or just tells me he is bored, and then when I suggest to do something he wont want to,or its just too boring or he hates it. I just can not make him happy and in the mean time im making everyone else around me miserable too.
Does ANYONE feel like this?