Stacey - posted on 09/05/2009 ( 20 moms have responded )
My 2 1/2 year old son has been seeing a speech pathologist for a few months & attending a special school for 1/2 day a week for over a month. His speech pathologist and myself are positive he has Autism on the mild end, we are waiting for him to be tested. I know he has not been diagnosed as yet, but 99% of me has accepted that he has it, and 1% of me is aware that he may not. I have been grieving, I have had quite a few really good cries, I cant stop thinking about everything, I sometimes get myself so stressed and overwhelmed that I feel suffocated, like I have a huge weight on my chest and no matter how much I try to relax and stop thinking about it so much, I cant. My family dont ask me how he is going, they dont ask how I am coping, they dont really talk about it at all. I dont know if this is because they think I am just jumping the gun, if they will be different after an actual diagnoses? I feel so alone. My Husband is quite supportive, but men are men. On top of all this, I had the whole family tested for gluten and lactose intolerance (just for curiosity because I was planning the move with the diet) and it turns out my 11 month old Daughter is lactose intolerant. My son didn't cooperate with the test, so we got no result for him, but Im sure he is too. It was upsetting, but also kind of a relief, because at least now I have an answer for digestive problems and it will make it easier to stick to the gfcf diet knowing they are intolerant to lactose atleast. I feel like I have been dealing with a lot in the last few months, I am feeling very stressed and overwhelmed, I feel sad and maybe even a little cheated, I feel guilt over having to take things away from them in their diet, I worry about what the future holds. People tell me, & I sometimes tell myself that it is not that bad, it could be worse, but it doesn't really help. I just want to know how other Mums felt, did they go through the same thing, how did you try to cope and deal with it, how long until things started to feel a little bit better?