Amanda - posted on 06/04/2011 ( 1 mom has responded )
I have 2 sons and got pregnant after 10 years of trying not to get pregnant... I knew I didn't want anymore kids plus I am soooo busy with my sons and knew I couldn't handle another child. Anyways I just had my first girl may 24 of this year and gave her up to a wonderful family... I know it has only been a week and a half. But I am starting to feel lost and alone. I don't regret it at all but I don't know why I'm sooo emotional when I knew 100% that this is what I wanted for her... I feel empty. Is this normal even though I don't regret my decision...? Also is it weird that I feel sad that I also lost the relationship that I built with the adoptive mom... we talked all these months and I got close to her and now I lost that too... I just have so many mixed emotions... idk how I'm suppose to feel.. what do I do with my feelings?