Brie - posted on 05/15/2012 ( 66 moms have responded )
I've been breastfeeding my 12 week old son ever since birth and i have never enjoyed it. It's never 'felt good' nor have i gotten that bonding experience that so many women talk about. It doesn't hurt at all, buts more of an "ugh...when is he going to be done??"
I've pretty much starved myself by trying to figure out whats causing his gas and colic and why he's being fussy while nursing and nothing seems to have improved and i'm eating the most bland foods possible.
The poor guy always seems so miserable and gassy after nursing and is constantly crying and spitting up. I don't ever get any sleep because the longest stretch he sleeps is 2-3 hours at night. Then he's up every hour on the hour for the rest of the night and takes little, 20-30 min naps during the day about 4 times.
I'm exhausted. All he does is eat and cry and eat eat eat and never sleep. His doctor recommended us giving him a 2 ounce bottle of gentle-ease formula at night to see if it helped his gas and helped him to sleep and it did! He was so much happier and slept better.
I always thought breastmilk was easier on babies tummies?? But he seems to do worse on it!
While he nurses, he snorts and flails his arms, pounding and clawing at my breast the WHOLE time (not just when my milk lets down) It happens pretty much all day long except for those rare moments he is calm and tucks in nicely to nurse.
Why doesn't it feel good? I feel like there is something wrong with me that I don't feel like I'm bonding with my son. I really want it to be a positive experience but its just getting worse. :(
any ideas? To get him to sleep we've tried warm baths, swaddling, rocking, swinging....co-sleeping is NOT an option. I've tried every position known to man while nursing to try and calm him down and keep him from beating on me but nothing seems to work.