Alison - posted on 08/20/2009 ( 35 moms have responded )
I nursed my first son for three months, everything was going really well and then I took him for his three month check up and the doctor was shocked to see that he had lost a dramatic amount of weight. So after spending a week in a childrens hospital and countless needles poking him and all kinds of tests run on him, they diagnosid him with "faliure to thrive" brought on by a small internal mouth deformation. Allthough the doctors told me that there was no way I could have known that he had a problem because I was a very gradual progression I still felt like the worst mom in the world , and in return lost all confidence with my self when it came to nursing. When I had my second son I was determined to give it another try, convinced that I was more educated on what specsific problems to look for. It only took 3 days of nursing and some pleeding from my husband to just start him on formula for me to loose all hope again, mainly because both my husband and I were scared to death about what happened to our first son. Looking back I wish I hadn't caved under the pressure and fear. So now here I am 4 years after my first sons hospitalization and expecting our 3rd baby anyday now. I really do want to try nursing again, but I feel like I have no confidence in my self and that I am lacking support from my husband and the rest of my family. Everyone keeps reminding me of what happened the first time and they all seem to have writen breastfeeding off as a non option, any advise on how I should handle this, and has any one else ever suffered a similar experience?