Christine - posted on 08/05/2009 ( 3 moms have responded )
I am pregnant with number 2 due in late Sept and it will be a girl this time around. Now with ym son Thomas I BF until I wasn't medically able to any more close to 2 yr old. (I had some radiation exposure issues due to brain tumor concerns) Especially in the beginning it was truly our special time and even now when he is almost 3 and we are cuddling at night I miss that closeness at times... darn pregnancy hormones! ( That and he i sjust so independant but then again not, I truly cherish this age, what am I saying I say that about ever stage so far :) )
Here is my dilemma, I had no issues for as long as Thomas wanted to nurse, I think by 3 or so, just by seeing how crazy and active he is I would have started to think on the contrary but feel like he would wean himself when he was ready and am 100% confy with that notion. However! I can't see myself nursing Maggie for long. I mean I see a year or so then just get a weird feeling about it and it is really concerning me. I think subconciously it is because she is a girl... I can't shake the feelign and it is making me not so much doubt myself but doubt my abilities to parent and nurture my little girl as I did my son. I mean I know I "wanted" another boy but I already love my baby girl but how can I be harboring these feeling towards/for her and she isn't even here yet...
Has anyone experianced anything like this or am I just losing my mind and over anaylyzing things..any advice/support comments would be appreciated...