Momof2 - posted on 04/01/2011 ( 13 moms have responded )
Okay, I used to work with my husband in the AF but I got out a few years ago and he is still in. We made the decision b/c it was too hard with two active duty parents. I love my kids and in a way I know I'm lucky to be able to be home with them but I miss having a life! Now I am all by myself all day. My husband works 12hr shifts nights and days so I'm alone a lot. I get so resentful and jealous when he comes home and tells me about how much fun he had on shift and all of the jokes and conversations. Its like he still has this life and career and I have nothing. I get really jealous when he works with women (this is not a trust issue-I trust that he won't do anything) but I get jealous that he spends 12hrs with them laughing and joking while I'm by myself with the kids. Sometimes I feel like being a wife is a crappy deal. I want a life, I want my old life back, I want to go to work and have conversations and jokes and let him see how it is to be alone all of the time. My oldest has special needs so between therapy and his special daycare plus my husbands schedule its practically impossible for me to go to work. He is getting ready to go TDY to a beautiful place for 6mts and I'm so jealous I can barely stand it. He will get to do whatever he wants for 6mts and I will be alone with th kids. Does anyone understand how I feel? How do you deal with is? Sometimes I just want to leave him with the kids and go have a life of my own (no I won't do that, I couldn't leave my kids, but I think about it sometimes). only supportive comments please.