Andrea - posted on 03/07/2009 ( 38 moms have responded )
I hesitate in asking on here for advice, encouragement, support because this is so confidential and difficult. I really don't have anyone to talk to though about this because I don't want anyone WE know to know - I want to protect his name and keep this very private. I found out this Jan. that my husband has struggled in this area for a very long time and has kept it secret. I have felt so betrayed, hurt and have been struggling with my self-image. I think, how could he have done this to me? How could I be so terrible to look at that he needed to look at other women. My heart is so burdened and heavy...It's so hard to pretend everything is ok with all I know to keep this issue private. We are both Christians and he is heartbroken and ashamed (thank God) but our marriage of just over a year is really struggling. It hasn't helped that he does not hardly ever initiate sex or touch me in that way since shortly after marriage...I can't help but feel that something is wrong with me and all my dreams for a godly marriage are so broken apart. I'm in this for life and he is in this for life, I love him...but my heart hurts so much. I could really use some encouragement and prayers. I'm a sister in Christ who longs to follow Him and have a lasting loving marriage relationship. Is there someone else out there who has gone through this?