Jennifer - posted on 09/16/2009 ( 4 moms have responded )
please pray for me i am having a very hard time. i left my husband 18 months ago because i couldnt handle the never helping me, never being home, working all the time, no emotional support...years of begging him to get US help and always told it was me not him. so i left...it turned my world upside down, i thought i was doing better by leaving so maybe he would do more with the kids and realize work wasnt everything. but i was done...i just wanted him there for the kids! well after 18 months i cant let him go, we are suppose to sign divorce papers in a month, but i will never be able to do it. but so much has been done and said, and so many hurtful things, that i dont know if i could ever go back. he works for his family and they have ALWAYS been a huge factor in our problems. i was raised in a very good christian family, so my decision was not easy, but my husband after 20 years of marriage never was saved and never would attend church. when i left i had this PEACE about leaving. he started going to church and he was saved and baptized, and please GOD forgive me for saying this, but i dont know if it was true or a way to get me back. sometimes he can still be so mean with his words and i dont know how to even think about how to make things right with our marriage. i dont know that i will ever be able to let him go, but im terrified of getting hurt again.
so please anyone if you have anything suggestions, or scriptures, please help me, because i feel sometimes i have let GOD down for my sins and maybe i dont deserve to be helped or even be happy...but i know that the power of pray and the more i have praying for me then GOD will hear my begging of his help!!! thank you for praying for me!!!