Sabrina - posted on 07/26/2009 ( 11 moms have responded )
I don't know if anyone else can understand my situation or perhaps just give me some advice or encouragement.
I had my child out of wedlock and I cannot seem to get beyond the feeling of guilty. I feel guilty because I feel as if I have let down God for not doing what I know I should have done.
I got pregnant with my first and only child right now by my boyfriend. At that time we had only known each other for a few months when I found out about it. Thankfully God has turned this situation into a favorable one where my boyfriend and I are great together and love our daughter with all our hearts. We couldn't be happier! The only exception is for men is that we aren't married. We have talked about married and since we both have had previous marriages (I am 29 and he is 30) he doesn't want to rush into anything. He has told me that he is scared of marriage and that things might change like his previous marriage did once they wed. Since I have a relationship with God and he doesn't, I constantly carry around this feeling of guilt. I have tried to get past it but it still bothers me. He knows this but still feels we should wait a year or two. I don't know what to think or how to feel. I just know that I want to make this situation right by God and me. Thank you for listening. God bless.