Michelle - posted on 11/03/2010 ( 125 moms have responded )
I have been battling with depression for years. Actually all my life if I'm going to be honest. I soo want to be the best mother and wife I can be, but lately it's so hard. I think mental illness runs in my family. I'm from the south so it's labeled "nerve problems". We have been haveing some money problems so that makes things worse. This last episode was really bad. Sometimes I have very dark thoughts. My husband is wonderful but just doesn't understand. He says things like "sorry your having a bad day", or "is the kids getting to you"? He just don't understand that it's so much more. I know if I went to a doctor they would put me on medication, but I don't have insurance. And I really don't want to take meds. I have dealt with it through prayer and just being close to God. But it seems like it's getting worse. Anyone going through something like this? Any suggestions? I so want to be one of those moms who always looks at the bright side of things and doesn't loose her temper over little things. I really have no one to talk to about this. To be honest I'm afraid to talk to anyone about how bad it has gotten. Even if you can't give me any advise, please pray for me.