Extrmlyblessed - posted on 11/13/2010 ( 7 moms have responded )
Lately I have been dealing with depression, but didn't want to admit it because I have been told (by my former pastor) that depression is ungodly and that all it's just a spirit.
However it has gotten worse, I feel like I am so alone and going to explode, and its overwhelming, I pray but I still feel like I have failed GOD and that because of my depression HE is mad at me, even though I know He has said HE will never leave me nor forsake me.
Today I finally expressed some of my feelings to my mom, and I expressed that I feel so lonely and her question was how is it that I feel lonely when I am also married, I tried to talk to my husband, but he tells me that he doesn't need this and that he can't do anything for me, which makes me feel even more alone,.I also have issues with trust because I have been hurt so many times, and I told myself that I can trust my husband because he will be there for me no matter what, but now I don't know what to think about him.
I am tired of feeling this way, it has been something going on for years, and people think I am okay because I put on a smile, but deep inside I am hurting and lonely, and I want so badly to get out of this darkness and into GODs light, but I feel like I don't how.