Jeanieann - posted on 08/07/2009 ( 20 moms have responded )
today i seen myself just set down and cry... I have been through so much in my life and still I am standing strong, I was raped 2 times, I just did get out of a marriage that should have never happen, you don't put a gun to someones head and scream I wish you would die, I believe my best friend Jesus was there with me that day, then i got (OV) CANCER and so far I am a 4 year survivor..yay...yay.. But I guess I just want to set and cry because now I have something that is only been out for 2 years and I have it... It is a mess that grows in the middle of your lungs and then into them, well mine is growing to my heart and left artery as well... if we can't get it smaller , then I have to have a heart and lung transplant... I am the only person in my whole state with (FM) (Fibrosing Med iastinitis) ok I know my father in heaven is right here with me all the time.... I guess I am afraid and just tired of being sick... I just moved home and I really don't have many friends here yet and I just feel so lost... I am so sorry girls.. I just needed someone to talk to... I hope you all have a wonderful weekend....
I CAN'T LIVE FOR YESTERDAY, IT'S GONE: I CAN'T LIVE FOR TOMORROW, IT'S NOT HERE YET, BUT WHAT I CAN DO IS LIVE FOR TODAY...