I feel like I am a rebellious child in a 34 year olds body. Can anyone relate?

Jennifer - posted on 11/15/2010

It's funny because I sign letters, well physical letters, ~Jen P31(it)... I just got in touch with my dad for the first time and I confused him pretty well... It's to remind me that I'm not perfect but always aspiring to work for the Glory of God. A fun and insightful book to read is called "Help! I'm Being Intimidated by the Proverbs 31 Woman" by Nancy Kennedy. It's out of print but you can still find it on Amazon.com.

Erin - posted on 11/15/2010

Jen Thank you from the bottom of my heart♥ God has been moving in our lives thanks to everyones prayers and love. We CAN do ALL things through Christ who gives us strength. Love you all. Erin

Jennifer - posted on 11/15/2010

Awesome Father, I lift now my Sister Erin and her household to You. I ask that you quiet the "rebellious spirit" she feels and allow her to recognize how amazing she is. Help her Lord to understand Your word and allow You to help her be molded into an even stronger Woman of Virtue, In Your Loving Name, Amen.

Erin, I had the most rebellious spirit so I know what you're going through. Remember, we're just P31's in training.... We won't ever be perfect, but we're all still amazing. Message anytime my friend, always here to pray and listen. Jen

Anne - posted on 11/15/2010

Erin In some ways I could have written your post. Our youngest daughter and I did not connect for the longest time. I loved her with every fiber in my body, but when she would say "I just want you to know...." I felt as if she was being very sassy. When she was a Sr. in Hight School I finally wised up and asked her why she had always said that. Her response made perfect sense. she wanted me to have all the facts as she say them. As of that day in 2006 we have had a connection that even living on the other side of the country can not brake. (she lives in CA and We, My Husband/her Father, live in MI. When I look back on our daughters growing up years I can see mistake after mistake that I made with both girls. They are now 22 and 26, not a week goes by that one of them does not tell me how grateful they are for the parents their dad and I have been. Often my house looks like it needs a "Mother's Touch" although I love to cook and cook from scratch, 4-5 nights a week. (Health issues of my husbands make it necessary that I do not use a lot of prepared foods. so it is a good thing I like to cook.) because of my own health issues with conic back, neck, and shoulder pain there are days when I do good just to make dinner. Thankfully I am able to go to a Pain Clinic and get great results, but about 3 or 4 times a year I have a flare up and house work is not an option. Because of this my husband gets stuck doing a lot of things that are "women's work" I am so Thankful He Does these things with a willing Heart! After almost 31 years of marriage I am just with in the last 15 years learning that Submission to my Husband is not a bad thing. Am I always good at it, Not By A Long Shot! But at least now I am striving at this. I am Very Glad You Allowed Us to Love You In Jesus' Name. I will keep you in my Prayers also in the coming weeks. With the U.S. Thanksgiving Day and Christmas and New Years just around the corner, I have found that I have to Prioritize what is the most important Christmas Traditions I want to accomplish. Christmas Cards with a "Year In Review" letter is very important to me. I have many family members that are not Saved. So I use this as a Time to Share What God Has Done in our Lives in the Past Year. Decorating the house is also a must. I have a nativity scene for every room of the house. BAking Cookies IS NOT NOR Has it Ever Been near the top of my list. This year My husband can not eat more that one or two a week, so this a an easy thing to not STRESS OVER.



I mentioned these things because I know that if I tried to do EVERYTHING, NOTHING would be done to the best of my ability. When you think you can not get through the day because you just would rather not be the mom and wife, ask God to stand in the gap for you and do what you can. I will keep you in my Prays.

Erin - posted on 11/15/2010

I would like to first of all thank you ladies for your support and prayers. They have deeply touched my heart♥ I love you ladies with Jesus' love as you have shown to me. Have a VERY blessed day!! And to also let you know that I made dinner for my family had game night with my daughter and had Bible study with my husband this morning. Prayers are being answered. Thank you Jesus!!!

Victoria - posted on 11/14/2010

I believe that you are making progress. The first step is acknowledgment, then we need to ask forgiveness, then turn away from it. It's an ongoing thing, we don't suddenly over night become the perfect christian, daughter of God, wife or mother, it's always an ongoing learning, renewing process. Each day we take a few steps in the right direction, then every so often we'll take a few steps back, only to realize our mistake & head back in the right direction again.

You're already headed in the right direction, because you want to become better in all aspects of your life.

I will keep you in prayer, but don't be so hard on yourself, just allow God to do the work, we're incapable of doing it ourselves anyway, so we just have to trust it to God & believe He will do what needs to be done if we are open to it.

Heather - posted on 11/14/2010

I would never judge you, because I think we all are just like you, although not many of us are as humble. I am so thankful that nothing we could ever do will determine our salvation. That was a free gift from God. One thing that I have learned recently is that I can't change myself, and if I try, I will only become frustrated. The Holy Spirit that God has given me will change me. I just have to let it.

Father God, thank you for Erin's openness. Thank you for her honesty and for her faith in you. Please work your Holy Spirit in her life, and help her to become the woman you desire her to be. Show her your love for her, and use that love to transform her, God. In the name of Your Son I pray. Amen.

Erin - posted on 11/14/2010

Carla, Thank you so much for praying on my behalf. You are definitely a God send. I will be looking at getting my hands on that book you had suggested. And also read in Psalms. Thank you again!

Carla - posted on 11/14/2010

Abba, Daddy, Erin needs You! Her childhood was rotten, she needed a Daddy, which obviously wasn't there for her. So she married a daddy-figure, but without the healing from her past, the past is coloring every aspect of her life. And thank You that I can understand that and cry out to You for her! This world is in sad shape; wounded, crippled emotionally people are raising even more wounded, crippled emotionally people, and the circle ever widens. I pray, Father, that You become Erin's Daddy. Let her be comfortable in coming and climbing up in Your lap and sharing all her pain with You. Holy Spirit, Comfort! Help her dig up the ugly plants of the past in her heart, and replace them with Your beauty. Soften the heart filled with hurt, so that she can raise her daughter in love. Wrap Your arms around this family and bring them all into Your care. Bring Godly people to their rescue, that can show them the way of love, true love. In Jesus' Name, amen

Darling, a lot of us know where you are coming from. Life sucks sometimes. When it closes in around me, I get out my Bible and camp in Psalms a bit. David always has a way of encouraging me. He ran for a good deal of his early life from a father-in-law who called him son, but spent most of his time trying to kill him. David always treated him with the utmost respect, and cried to God for help. David overcame, and so can we. I would also suggest 'The Shack', a book by Wm. Young. This is an awesome writing of Who God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are, and how They can change your life. I have read it 4 times, and each time I read it, I find more Truths. It's a hard read, emotionally-speaking, but you will find answers there.

God bless, honey. God is in the mission impossible business. Let Him work for you.