Crystal - posted on 01/31/2009 ( 60 moms have responded )
We attend a really small church! There is about 150 to 200 that attend!
Maybe smaller at times! They don't have much for our kid's there except Sunday mornings! Wednesday and Sunday nights I don't usually attend because the kid's fight in the pews I have 5, and usually I'm stuck back in the nursery room alone with me and my children not getting to hear the service anyway! I feel irritated and upset at times! I know I have developed a really bad attitude towards this church and I don't know how to get passed it? I would get involved in the music part of it but it's blue grass and my desire isn't really there and I' m just not crazy about the praise and worship! It's been 2 years back now and I understand why God has brought us back here to this church. My husband just lost his mother 3 weeks ago and his dad is by his self having a hard time! All my husbands family most of them attend there!
I feel the Lord brought us back 2 years ago because it was to face what was coming in the future which we are experiencing now. I know that we don't understand God's ways all the time and that his ways are higher than ours, but I'm feeling very dry in my spirit and there seems like there is no desire what so ever! I get more desire alone with my Savior at home! My husband and I have talked openly and he feels the same way ! He's frustrated about our kid's not really having a chance to grow in this church , and his desire with in the body of this church is slim as well ,but God seems to be directing us to stay here for a while! Does anyone have any advice on how we can cope with this situation , and could you all say a prayer for our family during this crazy time? God told us not to move to the left nor to the right ! We are obeying, but it is very hard!!!