Catrina - posted on 08/17/2009 ( 23 moms have responded )
Ever since I could remember, I always knew God was there. I remember being little and looking to the sky and wishing I could see God's face. When I was a teen, I knew God was real but I ran from Him. I knew it was Him tugging on my heart but refused to admit or refused to see that He had a purpose for me and that He wanted to use me. So I ran. I wanted to be cool and I wanted to be liked so I did everything a teen would be expected to do and more. I was so far from God that I didn't think there was any way I could ever be used by Him. When I was 20 years old, I had my second baby, Caleb. My husband, (wasn't my husband yet), came to the hospital to see his baby boy, and the next day he came in I was for some reason very open to him reading the bible to me. I had never been before! And from that moment that he started to read to me, I believed. I was a Christian. Ever since, I have been a believer in Christ. Now my reason for posting this is, that I have been straying from God again. I need Him more than ever and I need support from others. My marriage is falling apart and I've been making plans to separate from my husband and go home. Also, my children are out of control and I have lost all hope of being able to fix that either. I'm lost and I need help. I'm ready to admit that I need help. I've been proud and thought to myself that I could handle things on my own. NO!! I can't do it. I need Christ and the support of other Christian women. Maybe some that have been or are in my same position or maybe Christian women that are stronger Christians than I. I'm crying out for help and hope that my prayers are heard. I'm so unhappy being so far from the one who created me and the only one who can make me truly happy. Please, I need prayer and I need your support ladies. I thank all of you who are reading this and any comments/feedback I get will be greatly appreciated. God bless every one of you!!