Mad at God... Need help...

Heather - posted on 01/30/2010

I was thinking about Liam and you today, and I wanted to share some Scriptures with you.

Psalm 139:13-16
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

I know that many people have said that God did not do this to Liam, or that you have a right to be angry. But I have to disagree with both. God made Liam just the way he is. He made him exactly how he wanted him to be. We cannot fathom God's reason, but he does have one. And in God's eyes Liam is perfect, and wonderful. God pieced him together inside of your womb. He didn't forget part of him, he didn't make a mistake. He knew what was ahead of him, he knew about the tears, but it is all part of his plan. It will work together for the glory of God. Here are a few more verses for you:

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

Kristina - posted on 01/29/2010

God will never give you more than you can handle. He's trying to show you the great strength you have inside!!! Also, be mad if you need to. Every child gets mad at their Father at some point.... Prayers be with you.... And Liam will be on strong for having gone through this....

Suzanne - posted on 01/29/2010

out faith also gets pressed and stretched, my niece had the same thing. i have a learning disablity that also my daughter has, i didn't want children because i thought that she would get the same problem, when last year we had to get her tested for dylexia, which we both have. your flesh and satan LOVE TO tell you that you messed up, and that your child is a mistake.LET IT BE known that THE lord has given you a gift OF great price, your son. i believe that the LOrd WANTS YOU TO CAST ALL YOUR WORRIES AND FEARS AND EVEN YOUR ANGERY ON HIM, HE KNEW THAT THIS WWWOULD HAPPEN WAY BEFORE YOU DID, AND THAT IS WHEN THE FiATH AND LOVE COMES IN, give it to God, praise him for the struggles that are in front of you, about your sons health. the bible says to praise him in sttruggles and weary. you have aright to feel these but its the way that you and your husband deal with the painful reality of your child's health, you truely are a blessed parent, even with a child like yours. be blessed, and strenghten YOUR FACE.

Jamie - posted on 01/29/2010

Hi! I am a mother of 2. My first baby was born with part of his eyelid missing. I had a really hard time with people looking at him as him as if I did something to him. I blamed myself for his deformity and did get depressed. I can't even count how many times I cried about it. My son is perfect in every other way and I am so blessed to have him. God sometimes puts you in tough situations so that your faith will grow. Keep trusting in Him & He will bless you. Liam is still a perfect child. Children are a miracle in themselves. You will learn something very valuable from this... it just may take time. God bless you!!

Penny - posted on 01/29/2010

I'm sorry for the pain that you are going though. God I believe gives us challenges that we all must face.It's how we handle those challenges that makes our faith and trust in God stronger. We had a premature little boy 12 1/2 years ago. and we've went through some challenges with him. Just trust in God and love our little one with all your heart and God will get you through this trying time. The doctors have amazing things that they can do now to help him get better. If you need to talk I'm here. You can send me a message through circle of mom's. God bless you hun. We'll pray for you and your family. Hope this helps some.

Dessie - posted on 01/29/2010

Kailey it is okay to get mad.But also remember this I had to Things Happen For A Reason.I'm not sure why but know this it is their to teach you and maybe you can HELP another mother that is going thru the same thing.You can teach and help at the same time.

Lara - posted on 01/29/2010

First I want to say is Praise God that people are out there to give the right sapport. and encoraging words. and Also My family and I will be praying for you and your son and husband. This is just a trial and the harder you fight on your own and not giving it up to God the harder it will get , But if you surrender it over ot God and just Want HIS will to be done. He does love Liam and he Loves you and your husband very very much. Spend some time with the Lord. See what he saying to you . Draw strength from the time. Worship Him. The devil does not like it when we worship the Lord. It may also give you some peace of mind.
All will be fine.
He does understnad your feelings though, and is not condemming you for them either, its your actions or if you turn you back on him .
Hopeing this helps.
Your sister in Christ
Lara

Tamra - posted on 01/29/2010

Kailey, I can't imagine what it must be like to see your child suffer so. God has given us two very healthy kids. My husband, on the other hand, has just recently found out that he's been suffering from fibromyalgia since he was 17 years old. We have now been married for 22 years and have gone through many trials and tribulations. If it weren't for our patient, gracious, loving, awesome, all-knowing God, we would not be married today. I love my husband more today than when we got married.



I grew up believing that God made me and knew that down the road of my life I would choose to believe in Him. But I have recently come to understand what Romans 9 says (if you have trouble understanding try reading it in the New Living Translation). God has hand-picked each of His children. He has made each one of us for a specific reason and everything we go through is to help sanctify us and bring Him glory and honor and make us more like Christ.



It really helps me to remember that God made us and this world to make Himself known and to make a great name for Himself. He made us KNOWING that Adam & Eve would choose to sin and that mankind would need to be redeemed. He made everything KNOWING that He would send His Son, Jesus Christ, to DIE - take our death (God's wrath) for us! If He would do that to His own Son (in effect to Himself) how much better our lives would be if we lived in thanksgiving and joy that He has made a way for us to be His children and not be separated from Him for all eternity!



I pray that you will allow our God of Comfort to hide you under the shadow of His wing and help you to remember that He will keep you as the apple of His eye. I pray that you will wait upon the LORD and renew your strength through Him in prayer and His all-sufficient and powerful Word!



God bless you!

Nikki - posted on 01/29/2010

It must be very hard for you as it's always heartbreaking when you see your children suffer, physically or emoitionally. Or for other reasons that you cant control. But God is not doing this to your son. Life can bring so many blows and God is there to guide us to hear our crys our pain to wrap his arms around us, to comfort us. And help us through all our situations. He loves us all so much. I know its very hard at times to focus on these things, but the devil wants you to angry at god.
God bless
Nikki

Shelley - posted on 01/28/2010

Im not here to tell you are wrong for being angry that your son is having to go through all this pain and yes what seems to be torture, because I would probally be just as upset if it was one of my kids. But keep your faith and know God does not give someone more than they can handle, in the end this will make you all stronger. I will though keep you and your son and family in my prayers. I dont know if my words have helped you but know they come from my heart. Hang in there cause your one special person and mom.

Monique - posted on 01/28/2010

I don't think you should be mad at God I'm sure it is fustrating to see your child go through something like this but like you said all things in life happen for a reason and sometimes we may not know why, I think you need to just take some quiet time just you and GOD and just release yourself to him trust me it works I'm not sure how religious you are but just pray that is all you can do it wil get better ..........







MONIQUE P

Barbara - posted on 01/28/2010

I am so sorry, dear Kalley. It is very hard to watch our little ones suffer. Unfortunately we get weary and sometimes lose perspective. No doubt 62 other moms told you it will get better, but I am telling you the same. After 5 stays in the hospital in 18 months with my new baby. Now she is a happy, healthy 10-year-old. However, my sister has 4 children, 3 of whom are autistic, and she feels like she can never fit into any public situation. Please have courage, just like you are, and remember that God sent Little Liam to you because you were the best mother he could possibly have. No one else can care for him as well as you.

Kathy - posted on 01/28/2010

My daughter had the browing bar on her from the time she was 3 months old until she was 2. We made a game out of it. She could sit earlier than most children because the bar enabled her to be balanced. She is now a beautiful 30 year old woman getting ready to have children of her own. God does not make junk. Sometimes we get a curve thrown at us but God does not make junk. Enjoy your son. God loves him more than you could imagine. We cannot understand His love for us. Most of all be thankful for your son. There is always someone who is not as fortunate. Blessings.

Clydine - posted on 01/28/2010

I understand that the worse thing to do is see your little guy in pain; and the feeling of helplessness in watching it happen. My daughter when she was 1 1/2 yrs old started having seizures. I remember how angry I was that I couldn't make it stop and noone could explain why it happened. Just remember that things REALLY do happen for a reason! This may be tough; but it is making you a better mother, more understanding, stronger, observant, protective, and loving (to say the least). And this may be preparing him for a future in medicine, human relations, education, and so on. God does have a plan...and we may not understand it at the moment, it will show itself in due time. I think that having a positive support around you is vital for your peace of mind! Maybe make arrangements for one night after one of his procedures, to have a home health nurse come in and help with things around the house. Don't feel ashamed about asking for help...you aren't doing your family any good if you are overly stressed and cranky. Ask your physician/pediatrician if there are any support groups that you could check into. I think that talking to parents that have similiar stories will help you feel not so alone. It is alright to be angry about the unknown. We all do it; but remember...it was God that gave you Liam and I don't think he would have done that without a purpose. Keep your head up!!

Maggie - posted on 01/28/2010

How could God sacrifice his only, perfect son -- let him be beaten beyond recognition, tortured, spat upon, his beard plucked out, humiliated and nailed to a cross to suffocate to death -- for your salvation and your son's? God knows what it is like to suffer as a parent when something horrible happens to their child. Your child is 3 months old and he will not remember any of this. yes, you will, but he won't remember the pain. God does have a plan, and I would hazard a guess that he has mighty things in store for Liam, which means you have the awesome responsibility of preparing him for God's great calling on his life. You have to teach by example to love God above all else and trust him in trying circumstances. Our children watch us, and our actions speak louder than our words. It's okay to cry and scream and ask God why, just don't turn your back on him. I know that when you are going through an agonizing trial it is hard to understand what good could there be. I lost my father to cancer when I was 19 and had just finished my first year of college. I depended a great deal on my father's love, support and guidance. I felt like my entire support system had just been yanked out from under me. I felt completely alone and adrift. So many things have happened since then and I can now see how turning to God and trusting in him during that time has made me a stronger person, stronger Christian and given me just the right man as my husband (who i most likely would not have married as my father would not have approved...long story) there are many things I probably would have missed out on because my father's opinion would have been the deciding factor in my life, rather than my heavenly Father. My father was in the wrong place in my heart. I know that God took him because he had accomplished the work God sent him here to do, but it also allowed God to mold me into the worker he wanted me to be and get my eyes focused on the right person. There will come times as he gets older that you will have to correct Liam and discipline him, and he will cry, but if you truly love him, you will have to "hurt" him in this way to make him a strong person of character. That's all God is doing now. *hugs*



Psa 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

Ashley - posted on 01/28/2010

maybe God is just trying to see if you will trust him and lean on him he will do anything to get you to serve him and maybe he knows that seeing your child go through something like this will make you turn to him when my little sister was born her whole female insides were sitting on top of her belly she is now 16 but has had 12 surgeries and now my father is a pastor of a church my mom leads worship and my little sister is the smartest most talneted person i have ever met but she still has problems but Gob has helped us make it through all of them and he will continue to help us because we love and serve him!!! TRY GOD!!!!! you will never go back

Teresa - posted on 01/28/2010

Kailey, I can empathize completely with how you feel. My daughter, who's now 17, was born with multiple medical anomalies due to a "medically impossible" chromosome abnormality. She's been through 8 surgeries so far, including the heel cord cutting Liam went through. (She, too, was born w/bilateral clubbed feet.) She's also had heart surgery, cleft palate surgery and omphalocele repair to name a few.



This anger you have toward God is normal. And ya know what? God can take it. :) He knit Liam together in your womb, just as He knit YOU together in your mother's womb, and He knows every cell, every thought, every feeling you have. Liam's feet did not take God by suprise, nor have your feelings of anger/disappointment/hurt taken Him by surprise. This is all part of the process.



I think of Moses when God have him specific instructions (Exodus 4:10-11). Moses wanted to argue with God:

10 Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."

11 The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

Moses must have had a speech impediment, and was not confident in his ability. But God not only reassured Moses that He created Him and He already knew this, but He was sending his brother to help him. God said He'd help both of them speak and teach them what to do!

No, we don't know the "whys" of things like this. Even if we did know "why" the answer wouldn't be good enough for our mother-hearts. We'd do anything to keep our babies free from pain and discomfort. All we can do is do our job as Mommy, take care of our babies as God intends, give kisses and hugs, lay our hands on our children and pray for them, pour out our hearts to God--anger and rage and disappointment and questions and all--and trust Him.



Kailey, you will get through this. You are climbing the mountain right now, but there will be a day when you will crest the top of it. You will not always have these feelings. And the comfort you've received will be passed along to mothers you encounter who are standing in the very shoes you once occupied.



Give Liam a hug for me. He's growing into a very strong, young man. And by the way, did you know Troy Aikman, Kristi Yamaguchi and Mia Hamm were born with clubfeet?



Be blessed, Kailey!

Kathy - posted on 01/27/2010

It's ok to be mad at God. He understands. I used to ask why and blame God alot then my sister sent me the book When bad things happen to good people. It helped. You can probably get it at the library. Just as it hurts you to see your child suffer it hurts God to see his children suffer. Sometimes I think Satan does things to us to try to turn us against God and question his love. I will pray for you and your little boy to give you strength and to ease your suffering. May God Bless you each and everyday.

Renee - posted on 01/27/2010

I understand to an extent, my son was born with a heart defect that very few children survive and the ultrasounds never indicated there was a problem. About 15 hours after delivering my son, a doctor told us he would probably die.....well, he didn't and there is a great deal that God did over the next six months and continues to do.



I guess you'd be shocked by what I'm gonna say and just know that I used to be a minister's wife and I've also been to bible college. Yep, I'd be mad too. Stop beating yourself up for being mad at God. Plenty of people in the Bible get mad at God, sure it almost always makes their walk more difficult but God brings them through. My husband and I always got severe looks when we said that God is big enough to handle your anger. Keep in mind that everything is for a season, everything. The pain will stop, the crying will end and you can enjoy your son. I'd feel exactly like you. I suffered such severe depression after my son was born....I mean real bad. Most mom's don't get that bad. I mean, when a doctor says,"Well it's not postpartum psychosis but this isn't normal postpartum." You know you've hit an all time low. I went to see my old home doctor who is also an active missionary. He told me that I should be feeling the way that I did. Any mother worth anything would suffer and it just so happens that my chemicals got off balance due to the severe stress and lack of sleep. So, here are my suggestions: 1. Breath....its okay to be angry. Really angry is okay. 2. Make sure you talk to a doctor to be sure you aren't so sad or upset that you've headed down a road of sadness (depression) that needs helps with some meds - you will go off of them so don't stress about taking them. 3. Get some second opinions about your son. You know, your instinct is dead on. If you can't bear this anymore, maybe God is leading you to go down another path. Don't trust the doctor's blindly. My son had far more issues than just his heart and I was very lucky to have 2 doctors tell me that no matter how upset I was, my instinct was going to be dead on....to trust myself. If in your gut this doesn't sit well - stop it all and find another doctor and start doing some research. I remember something inside of me just "clicking" one day and I just knew that God was showing me that things were wrong - I was getting physically sick when my son did certain things. Guess what? As soon as we saw the doctor my sickness started to ebb away. Listen to your gut because when its really hard and rough God may talk to you different than you've ever experienced before. 3. Tell yourself every single day that this is for a season and God will not forsake you. You may not believe it. You may be really mad when you think it but do it anyway. Trust me it works. 4. A wise woman of God told me to start listening to Christian music throughout the house...even if it was turned down. Why? Well, right now is when your family is the most vulnerable. Regardless of what sect of Christianity you are in, one thing remains, God is God and Satan is real. If Jesus can be tempted then we all will. So, with that in mind, my dear adviser told me that Christian music does something wonderful.....darkness, evil, satan, whatever you call it, cannot stand to be in the presence of worship. Now, I thought, yeah right this is crazy. But let me tell you, my husband came home and asked what I did because the house felt "lighter". There is so much anxiety and stress in your home and perhaps you all may be getting pulled down. Put on the music and go about your day. Take some time every day to listen to it and if you can sing it. Your heart will begin to lighten. Trust me, a fellow mother who understands the deep pain your in. 5. Give this over to God - ALL of it. I know you don't trust Him or at least you did until he let this happen. Well, make room for Him to move. Get yourself out of the way. You can be mad and still do this. Just tell God your real thoughts; your anger, fear and pain and then tell Him that you know that He is the only one who can guide you and your family through this. Tell Him to take over. Now, you will need to do this every single day until you really mean it and you will one day. Just doing this shows that you have faith, even if its faltering.



I know this was long and my advise is much different from the responses I read. If you take nothing else from this...just relax, its okay to be mad and trust your instincts. I will believe for you, I will believe that God will pull you through this. He will. Contact me anytime. Love in Christ - Renee

Jackie - posted on 01/27/2010

You know, as a mother I can feel your pain....my girls are not going through similar pain or what your child is going through but I do believe that God will never give us more than we can handle...he must think your pretty strong! Be grateful that it isn't worse. My friend lost her five year old daughter to brain cancer a few months ago and believe me I was greatful that all I have to deal with is colds and fussy babies! I know it's tuff to see your chld suffer but please focus and the good and try to make the best of the bad. One day your child will be normal and when he is walking and dong his thing you can tell God thank you because he'll still be with you..theygrow up so fast enjoy every moment with him!

Terri - posted on 01/27/2010

As a mom, there is nothing worse than hearing the cries of your child-- especially when you cannot make it stop. There is no way for me to understand the mind of God at moments like this but that is when I have to trust in his love, goodness and mercy and I try to surround myself with verses or books that will remind me of those qualities or help me to focus on what I know to be true. So many times I have had situations with my children that help me to see what it might be like from the Lord's perspective. The Lord knows what it is like to see His son in pain and crying out too. Don't be afraid to tell him you are upset and you don't understand and ask Him to show you and bring your family comfort. You may not feel up to it now but the Lord may also want to use you and your family to reach someone in a similar situation that does not know the Lord. You are not alone. I will keep you in my prayers.

Kate - posted on 01/27/2010

Dear Kailey,

I am so sorry you have had such a difficult time, and I'm so sorry Liam has had to go through these tough experiences. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you all to experience this heartache, and I'm sure you are all exhausted. I just wanted to say that I understand how it would be easy to be angry with God for your sweet baby's situation, but during those times are when it's most important to keep your Faith. You are right when you say that God has a reason for everything. We have no idea what he has in store for Liam, but whatever it is, he will be a stronger person after he gets through this. Who knows? Maybe he will grow up and be a surgeon for children with his same condition, or maybe he will volunteer to be there for children with special needs who need the same support that he got from you when he needed it. One of the hardest things in the world is to see your child in pain, so I know you will come out of these experiences even stronger than you already are, as well. There is something that I think is a blessing, and that is that his condition is correctable. So many people have children with conditions that are permanent or fatal, and while this is such a hard thing for you and Liam to endure, he will eventually be okay. I know this might be easy for me to say since it isn't me in your situation, but I hope I maybe helped a little bit, and I hope I didn't offend you in any way. You and Liam will be in my prayers.

Cathy - posted on 01/27/2010

I would like to tell you that my brother had that exact thing. He just turned 40! We know that everything works to his perfect plan. My brother went through those surgeries as well and he certainly has scars, etc. But they are young and they grow through and become pretty resilient. He wore special shoes as well. He grew out of it and has many more happy memories to replace the past ones. Just make each day special and celebrate the successes. Even if it is that he slept through the night. Say his prayers with him and remember to pray for other children, who may have challenges as well. He will learn from very young that he is not alone and neither are you. Stay strong in the Lord!

Rosemary - posted on 01/27/2010

No one said this life would be easy, and we all have to go through hard trials and of course our faith is always tested. Let me tell you that God loves you through your anger, and questions, and He will make a way for you and your son to pass through this journey. I pray the the peace of God would just overwhelme you & your son today, and that each day your son will heal healthy. He understands your pain, the Father watched his son Jesus die, so that we might be saved-it was all with a purpose...your son has a purpose in life too, be patient and you will see unfold right before your vary eyes!

Cheryl - posted on 01/27/2010

I am so sorry for your hardship in this situation but please allow me to share. I, too was born with club feet. As you said, it's completely correctable. I know how hard it is to see your son in pain and try to reconcile that with God. I have ague memories of my mother putting my feet in the shoes with the bar overnight. I remember screaming as loudly as I could and crying profusely. My mother was a stay at home mom and I remember her talking to me while sitting by my bed rocking me or trying to comfort me to no avail. I couldn't understand why I had to wear these uncomfortable shoes and why my mother was so adamant about it. My father worked long hours during the day and we lived in upstate New York where it snowed to the point where he had to shovel to get his car in the garage and then shovel to get it out when he got home. He worked hard and needed sleep but I remember when my mom would give up and go into her room, my dad would come into my room and rock me, then he'd take my shoes off to calm me down. I would be SOOO happy. I'd fall asleep and then he would go back into the room. Not five minutes would pass and my mom would show up and strap me back in to the shoes. I thought she was the worse person in the world. I said allof this to say, those times were birthed in the tragedy of my club feet but today my dad is 70 and my mom is 67. Their 44th anniversary is on Sunday. When I think about them doing what was best for me and spending time in my bedroom comforting me, I love them all the more. My dad who I only spent evenings with due to his work schedule would sometimes sleep on my floor to comfort me and my mom was a jewel for putting the shoes back on my feet so that they could be corrected. Today I am a mom and thankfully, I was never faced with this with my children but I thank my parents for doing what they had to do to correct my feet. We dont' live in a perfect world. The Bible says, "In this life there will be hard times." We just have to know how to deal with them. We have to trust God and know that as Rom 8:28 says, all things will work out for our good. You have to know that your son is going to be OK. How do you think families feel whose children's hearts are in disarray? What about those that are told that their children won't live past a certain age. You have to learn to be thankful. At least he has legs. At least he can walk. At least it's correctable. Liam is building character. God knows what he needs to build up in Liam so that he can be what God has put him on this earth to become. God is his father and loves him more than you ever could. Sometimes we lose sight of that as parents. I am my parent's most independent child. I have always been this way. In spite of my club feet, I lived a very normal childhood and have no recollection of my club feet. Liam's situation will pass. He will be better, stronger, and able to handle things better. He is a fighter that will have had his character traits built out of this. You must trust God with Liam and not yourself. And learn to be thankful for what you DO HAVE instead off what you don't. Trust me, it could be A LOT worse!! Hang in there through the pain and trials of this. Hopefully, it will be something you and he laugh about later in life like I do.

Heather - posted on 01/27/2010

I want to suggest to you the book I am reading. It is written by Nancy Leigh DeMoss and is titled Lies Women Believe. It addresses some of the things you mentioned in your post, and I am learning a lot from it. You can check your library, or it was only $15 at the Christian Family book store.

Bernedette - posted on 01/27/2010

God didn't do it. Only GOOD things come from the LORD. YOUR son came from God, his difficulties are not of God.

Bad things happen in everyone lives, instead of blaming the LORD, why not rejoice in this trial and look for ways to better yourself, strengthen your walk and help your son and others like him, pray over your sons feet..and SPIT in the devils eye! Don't let him have the victory over you. In every catastrophe, there is a praise report -

April - posted on 01/27/2010

Well i dont normally comment on posts but felt particularly compelled to do so in this case. 1st and formost, realize this, clubfoot is one of the most correctable and dealable birth defects. It is a complete blessing to only have that. Many children with clubfoot can also have spina bifida which you probably know, in which case he could be paralyzed. That being said, I am a Christian and my son was also born with clubfoot which was diagnosed during ultrasounds as well. My first piece of advise is this....have patience, pray, and trust God. My son is now 14 months, wears his brace EVERY night and it doesnt bother him for a moment. Of course he likes them to get off in the morning so he can run around (which he does OH SO WELL). I remember the surgery, the tears, the casts like it was yesterday. It was completely heartbreaking. We had our issues with casts and everything too, him getting a pitting edema, etc. BUT it is SOOO worth it to see their feet look amazing after all of the struggles and pain. They are so young and forget so fast. Do NOT BE DISCOURAGED! Lastly, if you are not using the PONSETTI method...switch right now. Find a dr who is registered to do Ponsetti method in your area (which is on Dr Ponsetti's website). IT is the most amazing and successful way to treat it. I know this was a long reply but I wanted to tell you that your son is beautiful and a God given gift, God gives us the hard things sometimes to really appreciate the beauty in the small things. I honestly believe that it has made my son stronger and more perfect for having to go through this experience than a regular baby. God Bless!

Tiffany - posted on 01/26/2010

I know this is so hard for you and your family. First and foremost i want to send my prayers your way. Second i can understand what you are going through somewhat. I too was mad at God when my (now almost 3yrs) son was born. In the delievery room they told us everything was perfect and he looked great! We were so happy to have a sweet healthy baby, that is until the next morning when the on call pediatrician came in and looked our son over. She told us that Benjamin had a hole in his heart. It was called a VSD, and he would need to be seen by a pediatric cardiologist. We were so confused. She looked at us and said... what's wrong? Didnt they already tell you this last night? We knew nothing we told her. She looked over his file again and realized they didnt even catch it the night before. How they didnt catch it she said she will never know. I was so scared. To be told your child has a hole in their heart is shattering. She didnt know how bad it was and wouldnt know until my son could get a Echo done on his heart, that would tell them exactly where and how bad it was. If it was bad enough he would probably have to have surgery to "try" and correct it. However there was a possibility it wouldnt be that bad and he could "possibly" outgrow it by the time he is 6 months old to 1 year old. We asked so many time during the 2 days we were at the hospital about the possibility of death. We were sooooo scared to take this child home, for fear something would happen. I wanted to stay at the hospital for some reason i guess i thought as long as i was there if something happened they could help him right away and not have to wait on an ambulance, etc. They said its "unlikely" however you always have to know it is a possibility depending on how bad the hole is. What do you say to this..... nothing... i couldnt say anything. I was scared. Shocked. Mad. Hurt. Angry. Everything. I was simply everything rolled into one. I didnt know what to do but they finally let me stay 1 extra day. They sent me home with this tiny sick baby. The one thing i am most thankful for is that it wasnt my first otherwise i am sure i would never of had more! Anyways to make a long story shorter. I took my son 2 hrs away to a pediatric cardiologist, (The town we lived in didnt have one i had to go to a different town), i went there on Feb 14th 2007 and my son was born on Feb 9th 2007. I will never forget it was valentines day when i went and my husband had to work so he couldnt go. I went and he had the echo done. We found out he had a VSD, they explained all the dangers and risks with a VSD. Of course i wanted to put Ben in a bubble but that isnt exactly ummm..... practical LOL. They told me any bacteria that could get into the blood could kill him since it could attach to the smooth area where the blood is rushing through the hole. I was scared every bump, scrape, cut. EVERYTHING. Scared. We had regular appts and he was monitored closely. Lucky for us a Echo at 11 months old revealed the hole had closed on its own. Benjamin was going to be fine and could lead a healthy normal life.

Now. I like to think that this happened because i prayed everyday for 1 yr for my child. Because i put it in Gods hands and believed he would do what was right for my child. That he would help him and heal him. That he had a plan. That is what i like to believe now. However when all this started. I didnt believe any of those things as i stated before. I was angry, hurt, shocked.

I do believe God loves Liam and YOU very much. I do believe he has a plan for him and you and that it is possible Liam will be healed, with time. That is what i would like to think for you and your family and Liam's sake. I truly hope it happens this way and someday you will be able to tell your own success story. For now i say keep praying, put it in God's hands and just keep praying for God to help Liam.

If you ever need someone to talk to. Or cry to. Or just vent. Feel free to add me to your circle and message me anytime. :) We will pray for you and your family and most of all for Liam.

Marcy - posted on 01/26/2010

I know it is hard for you and your son, my nephew was born the same way and had lost of trouble, but if you saw him now you would never know it. Please remeber God did not make this happen , he has a plan both you and your son. He already knows the outcome and how it will come about. He has great plans for you and your son, maybe it is to teach others about this condition or to support someone else who will be in your shoes and have noone else to turn to, or maybe just to teach others that even though he is physically different he is spiritually the same as everyone else and deserves to be treated that way. We should give God praise in every situation, Keep praying and God will take care of everything.

Judy - posted on 01/26/2010

I'm sorry for the pain/suffering your son endures, and yourself as well. All I know is that you have to trust God. It's actually natural to be angry with God, but don't lose faith because He is there in the midst of it all. Bad/Sad things happen to good people, it's not God causing it. Yes God knows the beginning to the ending, but He doesn't cause the pain/suffering. Sin caused that a long time ago, and as long as the world is here it will continue, but Jesus suffered and died on the cross that we may have eternal life where no more pain/suffering will be. Even in the midst of what you are going thru remember someone else is going thru even worse and it makes you count your blessings a little more. I'm saying this all in love, so hopefully you are reading in a gentle caring way in how I intend it to be. I lost my daughter, it will be 6 months on the 29th of this month to viral mennigitus, so I know pain/suffering to, but amazingly I'm not angry at God. At what happened, yes, do I understand it, no, but I continue to hold onto God to see me thru, and I pray you and your family do the same. You have him with you and that is a blessing. I wish I had my daughter. Keep faith :)

Jessica - posted on 01/26/2010

My name is jessica although i have not had the same problem as u, i have had one of my sons almost die adn when he was in the hospital i had hold him down while doctors squeezed and twisted his wrist just to get blood cuz his viens where to small for needles he screamed so loud and was black and blue he hurt so bad. i just asked God why why my baby what did i or him do? i talked to my friend who is my pastors wife who said that this is his testimony a part of his walk and mine and maybe this is a why for God to see if we really have true faith in him. I will pray for u guys but please no matter what u do do not turn ur back on God I have seen a few miracles in my family and i know that if u keep ur faith and prey ernestly he will answer ur preyers. i hope that this helps u in some way i know its horrible when ur children r suffering but its then that we need to ask god for his streghth and comfort. one thing i encourage u to do is anniont ur son with oil. to do htat u go to ur nearest bible store and get annointing oil and put a small amount his head and prey for healing.
Godbless.

Brenda - posted on 01/26/2010

I am a 31 yr old mom to a 6 month old boy Isaiah. It took 9 years before we were blessed with our little man. My husband has myotonic muscular dystropy- which we found out six weeks after being married when my husbands cousin had a little boy. She has gone through the feet surgeries as well for her son so I can understand a bit where you are coming from. My brother had corrective shoes for 3 years once he was able to start walking- and is now able to run miles nonstop. Our doctors told us we would never be able to have children and to look at other options. We believed God would fulfill this longing we have for children since he gave us the desire.

I do honestly believe God's promise of giving us only what we can handle. I also know that it is in the Bible in Jeremiah about God knowing the plans he has for us, and in Psalms about there being a time for everything. I prayed for 5 years for God to give me patience until it was his timing for me to have a child. I have screamed at God about how unfair it is for people unable to care for their children or having abortions being able to have kids and I couldn't. I watched every family member having kids and one saying they didn't really want it and then changing thier mind. Through all of it I never lost faith that God understood my feelings and that his shoulders were strong enough to lean on even when I was so confused and scared. David ranted at God asking God why had he forsaken him while fearing for his life. The anger you feel is not unnatural or abnormal- God gives us these feelings for a reason. I hope in this time that seems like God may not be near, remember to draw near to God. I encourage you to rant at God as you do need to release some frustration, but do not turn away from God. Our time and God's time are not the same. What seems like forever to us is but a moment in time to God.

God does love you and Liam. He loves you enough to have given Liam to you, and given Liam a mom who cares enough about him to not fear criticism and to seek out other moms opinions and advice.

Alie - posted on 01/26/2010

I do Not believe that everything happens for a reason, and I don't believe that God does things as in your situation. I believe things happen and God is there for those that believe and have faith to guide us through, heal, and comfort. He did not "do" this to your son, it just happened and then by you believing and asking Him for His help, he will be by both of your sides. Keep believing and praying and he will stay by your side and make it as easy for the both of you as possible. Turn your back on Him for just a second and the depression and hopelessness will set in. The devil is always looking for an opportunity to take over where you have forced God to leave off. So keep God on the frontline so the devil doesn't even get a turn.

Samantha - posted on 01/26/2010

Please don't be mad at God, He is such a wonderful Father and would never allow anything in your life that could not be used to bring glory to His name. If God did not feel He could trust you with Liam to make sure he would be loved and well taken care of, he would not have given him to you, now you must prove God right, and be strong. God cant trust everyone with trouble because most people fail under pressure, but a true child of God can be trusted to overcome. You don't know what God has in store for Liam, maybe He will be a great athlete, football star or sprinter, and imagine 22 years from now Liam on TV (Good Morning America) telling the story how he was born with club feet, but now look at him a football star, about to go to the superbowl! Liam's story will encourage some little boy listening who may have the same condition that with God all things are possible. So be encouraged enjoy your miracle because they are miracles given to us by God! Love you and take care!

Sandra - posted on 01/26/2010

Hi, Kailey. My name is Sandra Mills. I am touched by your story. I confess that I don't have a clue what it's like to see your baby go through these things helplessly. I can only imagine how awful it must be and I can understand being angry at God for it. I think it is natural, if you will. We believe He is able to heal...and even prevent these things. Why He chooses not to at times is beyond us. I do believe He has a divine reason for all things. However, this belief doesn't make reality easy to accept much of the time.

My heart goes out to you and I can imagine how guilty you feel. My advice is not profound, but I sincerely hope that it helps you. Simply tell the Lord how you feel. Tell Him that you are angry and hurt. This is a thing that He knows anyway. You won't be wrong. He said come bodly to Him, so pour your heart out....as many times as it takes. He can heal your hurt, but you must first give it to Him.

You are in my prayers. Praise Him in all your situations. He will see you through.

Tracy - posted on 01/26/2010

If we didn't have bad, how would we know good? If we didn't have down, how would we know Up?! You have every right to be upset! But try to put your trust in God, and be faithful that He will get Liam and your family through this. Nothing that God does is in a snap, it takes time, but KNOW that God is watching out for Liam and your family- DON'T STOP PRAYING! I will Deffinatly be praying for you and your family to get through this! Just know that there are people who care! :) GOD LOVES YOU AND LIAM! Don't give up on God, He NEVER gives up on you. :)

Barbara - posted on 01/26/2010

It is okay to be angry, anger is a natural motherly emotion. But as you said God, has a reason. It may not be clear to you right now. It may be that his reason for allowing this to happen to your family is that you can be strength for someone else. Because you believe in God things are going to be tough. But your reward will be greater than what you believe that you have sacrificed. Who knows your son may become a NBA player, or something even greater. Just know that he never gives us more than we can bear. I know that you are upset, but talk to God,, ask him what you want to know. Ask that He make sit clear so that you can get some peace. My prayers are with you and your family.

Kelly - posted on 01/26/2010

God does not give problems...He gives solutions! Maybe God gave YOU to Liam. What a lucky little boy to have a mom that is so strong for him and loves him so much. God much like our parents understands anger. Just because you are angry dosen't mean you don't love Him. Just keep your faith and keep trusting in Him. I will pray for you and your family:-)

Andra - posted on 01/26/2010

I don't believe "God made this happen". I believe He allows things to happen because it is the normal course of events. He doesn't always intervene. One Biblical principal is that bad works just like good does...like a pebble dropped in a pond...the ripples spread out and you don't always see where they are going. All bad has unexpected consequences...it hits unexpectedly and usually the most innocent. No one sees it coming. That is why we must try to hard to do what is right at all times...and yes, it is VERY hard!
I understand where you are coming from, too. My last child and I almost died in childbirth 4 years ago. And I lost my dad to cancer last June...a man who ate right and loved people with all his heart. He was a chiropractor who even worked on his own patients the day he went into the hospital! He died a month later. Several of his patients he never sent a bill to, because he knew they truly couldn't afford it, but he wanted them to be well, anyway. He always said wellness should not depend on whether or not you could afford it. God didn't take my daddy; He recieved him into His Arms. Satan hurt my daddy, but God relieved him of his pain. God didn't let him suffer long. God took good care of my dad, and He will take good care of your son. And know that God hurts when we hurt. Satan hurts us because he knows that when we hurt, God hurts. Satan hurts God THROUGH us! If you want to be angry, be angry at Satan and not God. God loves you and Liam; Satan hates you. Give your trust to God and He will lead you out of the wilderness and into His Glorious Light!
Hugs to you and Liam!!

Rachel - posted on 01/26/2010

Kailey,



Do not lose hope. Remember that you LOVE GOD! He allows us to go through things, but never more than we can handle...and it is ALL for HIS GLORY. You will be able to use your experience to touch someone else's life. If we never went through things, how could we testify of HIS love and grandness.



I asked HIM to use me, I wanted to have MY OWN miracles and be a testimony. I didn't want to testify of miracles of others. I wanted to testify of my own. I never knew what was in store. It hurt to learn that I would NEVER have children and I gave up. When I did give up, I was a month pregnant and didn't know it. When I was 3 months pregnant I went through and survived Hurricane Andrew. My son is now 16 years old and I use this as a testimony of His grandness. I was infertile again...for 4 years...and became pregnant...the doc stated I had to wait to miscarry an empty sac. I waited and waited and waited...sleepless nights and horrible days. I went to a follow up ultrasound and couldn't stand to see the screen. I layed there with tears and asked 'Why?'...the young lady insisted I turned to the screen and I saw the heart beat and blood flow of my 'empty sac'....He answered...'For my glory!... My daughter is now 12 years old. The enemy attacked me again with spurt of anger...through my third child...he was born with liver failure and was hospitalized for a week...he was supposed to be blind due the liver failure, but again GOD has a purpose and will show Himself...my son is now 10 years old and sees without any problems...he was healed from his liver and sight! You may wonder what next...well...my last son was developmentally delayed...he didn't sit, crawl, or move even slightly for the first 1 1/2 years of life. He was a breathing vegetable, he always cried, seized, and yet I held on....The GLORY be to GOD ....my son is now 9 years old and runs, plays, and is an A- B student!

The times I became angry I reminded myself of 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13 and 2 Corinthians 12:15....and top it all off with Psalms 103! All you have to do is surrender your baby to HIM and allow HIM TO COMPLETELY HEAL LIAM...I proclaim he is healed by the blood of JESUS and by HIS stripes he is NOW HEALED! As you have believed....it shall be done. Remember that it is ALL FOR HIS GLORY!



1 PETER 1:6-7



May God bless you and brings peace to you and Liam that surpasses all understanding.

I now remind them that they are my gifts from God to take of for HIM and know that they are not mine but HIS!

MIRIAM - posted on 01/26/2010

I can recommend a book that can help you. It is titled How to Handle Adversity by Charles F. Stanley. I found it at a Dollar General store for only $3 or you can get it through his website at www.InTouch.org. It is full of scriptural references and solid Christian advice. The big question isn't why things happen, but how we deal with them. If we allow our anger to get us stuck being mad at God, we miss out on a chance to grow in Him. Your anger is normal and it sounds like you won't allow yourself to be angry for very long. If you can get this little book, please do. It has helped me understand trials in my life and how to deal with them. As long as you keep looking to God for the answers to all of your questions, you'll be fine. Your son has been blessed with a good mom.

Maryann - posted on 01/25/2010

Kailey, this might sound difficult for you to do but thank God that at least you're able to enjoy your son no matter what. Have you thought about other things that could have gone wrong? In everything God wants us to give thanks to Him because it could have been worse. I work in the health field and I've seen babies who need transplants of very vital organs before they could live. Thank God you're able to hug and love your son no matter what. You're stronger than you think and God knows you'll be able to handle this problem. God bless you and open the eyes of your heart so you may see and understand Him. Love.

Brenale - posted on 01/25/2010

prayer and time will tell my dear! IT's got to be hard i haven't ever delt with anything like this , but i'll be praying for you both to heal.

Sarah - posted on 01/25/2010

Remember God never gives you anything you can't handle! I Don't know you but i will be praying for you and your family. God hand picked you to raise, and love that little boy with all your heart! Remember that! A good book to read, that I'm just starting to read is: A Mom After God's Own Heart - By Elizabeth George
You're a good mommy doing everything you can to help your little boy! Keep your head held high, and take everything one day at a time!
Me and my family will be praying for you!

Sharon - posted on 01/25/2010

Kailey, God did not do this to your son. The Bible tells us that every good gift and every perfect gift comes from above. satan wants you to think this is God's fault, when in reality, everything that is evil and wrong with the world is His fault. My youngest daughter was also born with a club foot and my olderst daughter had to wear corrective shoes until she was in grade school. This is indeed a rough time for you, more than your son. My daughters don't even remember the struggles they went through. They are now 32 and 26.You need the stabilityand strength that only God can give you. It is in times like this that His faithfullness will get you through the tough times. We are Christians in the midst of a wicked and perverse world. The Bible tells us that we are in the world, but not of the world and that it rains on the just as well as the unjust. The difference is that we have a Heavenly Father to lean on who will help us get through the tough times. In the midst of raising four children, the bumps,bruises and childhood illnesses, there is no way I could have made it without Jesus. Run to Him, spend time in prayer, Bible study and just ask Him for help, peace, comfort and security that both you and your son will get through this tough time. He will be there for you.
Father, comfort and give strength to this mother. Lord help her to see and know that everything she needs to get thorugh this tough time she can find in you. Lord you know that when Your child hurts, You hurt also. Give her peace that you are always with her.
Your child, Sharon

Ed Dii - posted on 01/25/2010

Dear Kailey I do feel for you, I don't know what to do, but u are right God has a reason to do that. Read in Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for u says the lord..."

God has a plan and a purpose for Liam. Be strong and continue to seek God amist the problems. For he has promised never to leave you and that he will hear you when you call upon his name. I will be praying for you as well. Have faith miracles do happen.

Marva - posted on 01/25/2010

Are you a real believer in God and read the bible? Sweetheart i understand why you would ask the question and you know, God does not mind if you ask either, but blaming is another issue. Your question presupposes that God has absolute responsibility for whatever decision we make and is happening in the world. Reading the first few books of Genesis tells a different story. God made us, and gave us control and He wanted to be our God and work with us and manage the earth, enter the serpent, the devil, evil, whatever you want to call it. He gave man an option, follow what God says which is a lie or believe what i say and make me ruler, Guess who man chose? Well we are reaping the benefit of the choices we have made. Please don't be upset with GOD. hE LOVES YOU SOOO MUCH RIGHT NOW AND FEELS THE PAIN OF YOUR SON AND YOU. Talk to him when u feel down, when things are most difficult, when you want to sleep or the pain to stop. Tell God what you feel and that you want to understand and feel different. Or even if you don't know tell him too. That is when you see Who God is and what he is doing in the earth. He always comes through for his children, Yes that's you and your son and family.

Kimberly - posted on 01/25/2010

Cameron Mathison: From Leg Brace to 'Dancing With the Stars' AKA Ryan Lavery from All My Children. Very inspirational!!!

http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/overcoming-per...

Melissa - posted on 01/25/2010

I can't imagine watching my little girl go through this... I almost cried when she had to have blood drawn! I think that I would be pretty mad too. The only thing I can think of to say is that to remember that God doesn't give us anything we can't handle-- have confidence in yourself that you are the very best caregiver Liam could ever have, and that you are up to the task. This is a perfect opportunity for the adversary to turn your heart away from God-- don't let him win! You can do it! Feel free to get in touch with me :-) I will be praying for you.