Kailey - posted on 01/22/2010 ( 74 moms have responded )
My three month old son, Liam, was born with bilateral clubfeet. For those who don't know what it is, it's when the feet are turned up and in. I found out at my 5 month ultrasound (when I also found out I was having a boy). It's completely correctable, but I've always felt sad about it. It's hard to have people look at my son differently. Since he was two weeks old, he has had his feet stretched and put into casts every week until he was two and a half months. There have always been many tears at the appointments, but afterward, it seems like he forgets about the casts completely. In early January, he had two heel cord tenotomies (his achilles tendons were cut and lengthened). After the surgery, Liam was a little fussier for a week. Then both his casts fell off on different days, and he had to have them put on again. He cried worse than I have ever seen. It was so hard to watch, and his pain lasted for days. The doctor talked about relapse, and that Liam may need the tenotomies done again. Then his special shoes came in. They keep his feet in the right position, and they're connected with a bar. He just got them Jan. 19. The crying was awful, and it lasted three days and nights. We got very little sleep. He seems to be doing a little better now, but he's not quite himself yet.
Most of me understands that things like this happen, and God has a reason. But part of me is angry. How could God do this to such my sweet innocent baby if He loves Liam? I don't want to be mad, I just can't help it right now. If you have anything to share, please don't hold back.