Megan - posted on 08/13/2012 ( 8 moms have responded )
Why is it that everyone always talks and shares about the joys of motherhood and the wonderful experiences I'll have, but no one ever told me about the overwhelming loneliness? The sheer isolation I would feel? I imagined my days as a stay-at-home mom blissfully whisking my 4 children off to play grounds and museums with other blissfully happy mothers and their children. I never imagined that I would actually spend my days at home alone cleaning, feeding, diapering, and other routine tasks of motherhood... I never imagined how badly I would long for my own mother who lives 1500 miles away in NY while I spend my days in the twin cities among other mothers who seem to not have the time nor the care to get together Why did no one ever tell me that I would feel like I don't "fit in" with the other mothers in the Mops group and how their children would seem not to want to play with mine? Why did no one ever tell me how I would wish for the clock to move just a little bit faster so I could see my husband walk through the door and I could hold a conversation with someone that is able to talk about something other than bugs or My little Pony? Why do I know that God is always with me but I cannot feel Him amidst all the loneliness? Why can't I combat this overwhelming feeling of isolation? No one ever shares how hard it's going to be to give up yourself for your children. No one ever says that watching your husband walk out the door to work every morning would bring tears and frustration.... No one ever mentioned the loneliness.