Christine - posted on 03/04/2010 ( 9 moms have responded )
I haven't written any posts yet, so I hope it is OK that I ask for prayer.
I was sexually and emotionally abused when I was a child, and it has left many emotional and physical scars. We also had a stillborn son in 1998.
The last 4 months have been a nightmare for our family. I have been hospitalized 5 times since November for anxiety and depression. The Drs. have tried several medications, doses, etc. Tonight I am supposed to try a new anxiety medication, which means that I will have to wean off of my current anxiety medication, which is scary to me. I also have several health problems that require medication. I have a few Dr. appointments coming up to see if they are missing anything. I would like prayer for the Lord to guide me and have me on the right meds, doses, etc. so that I can move on with my life!! The anxiety is awful and so hard for me to deal with. Also, I got an infection from being in the hospital, so I would appreciate prayers that it gets healed quickly and no one else in the family gets it.
I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I'm so tired of tears, anxiety, depression, financial problems, marriage problems, kid problems, etc. etc. It's too much! I am overwhelmed and have even been suicidal at times. I know that is not what the Lord wants for me, so I pray that those thoughts go away. I really want my life back. I want to heal. I want a closer relationship with my husband and kids. I want to feel like a strong Mom and wife again. I don't want to be so afraid of everything...it is exhausting.
We need a breakthrough in the worst way!!!