Nancy - posted on 07/29/2011 ( 2 moms have responded )
Hello my fellow Christian Sisters,
My name is Nancy and I need some prayers. I am going through a rough period in my life and the devil is really battling me through my mind, emotions, and thoughts. It started about two years ago when I had my daughter, I was so happy and things were going well and than 5 months or so afterwards my life seemed to shatter in front of my eyes I felt paralyzed by fear and anxiety. It seemed like I had a hard time getting out of bed and didn't want to. I remember one week my daughter was away at her grandparents and I spent the whole week in bed and realized this is awful and I need help with my depression and anxiety. So I started to see a psychiatrist and got on medication and life seemed alot better. I started a great new job and I felt like I was the old me again but was still on the meds. I felt a little upset that I needed medication to make me "normal" and "happy" but thought it beats being in that slump. Than recently I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd baby and I decided I would stop taking the medication because I didn't want it in my baby's system or affecting my baby. I did fine without the medicine for the first 5 months of the pregnancy and am currently in my 6th month. The last month has been so hard b/c alot of changes have happened. I had to leave my new job due to issues going on with the employer and I felt this was God's way of making me a stay at home mom and caring for my babies and teaching me how to solely depend on him and not my own. I've always felt so productive and useful when I am working and it felt good knowing that I was bringing in income but after leaving my job and staying at home I felt like the depression and anxiety is creeping up on me and slowly the devil is trying to defeat. This disease has had a very powerful grip and this time I want to conquer it with God and the power of God's word but I need prayer partners and people who can support me in my weakness and spiritual life. Also, I would like to ask if there is anybody that wants to be email buddies or accountability buddies where we can follow up with each other. I greatly appreciate all your prayers, support, and love. God bless you all.
Ps. Sorry for the long post and I hope to one day write my testimony of being healed from this. :0)