Pat - posted on 02/24/2011 ( 5 moms have responded )
Ladies, i am quickly losing heart. my 13 yr old and i got into it last night. she doesnt beleive in the God of the bible, thinks being gay is ok 'since they are made that way', has a male friend who is bad news and of course atheist, and i 'just dont understand'. my former stepdaughter(her half sister) is now not speaking to me, and we were just getting close again after several years of tension. she isnt a beleiver since she went off to college and is now a therapist. my ex (first husband, both of theirs father) isnt a beleiver. at this point, i am alone in this. my parents dont beleive either ,so I have no one backing me to raise these girls in the word of God. i have a couple friends, but no one that can truly support me through this. I was reading a bible story to my 3 yr old before bed last night...creation story, and the whole time i had that voice in my head about how silly it sounds, God just spoke everything from nothing. the devil is having a field day with me and my family and i dont feel i have the strength to stand alone anymore. i dont want to be a whiner. i am just so discouraged and dont know how much more i can handle. I love my stepdaughter(well, former step) and losing her again and now my oldest...i just dont see much to be hopeful about. raising two toddlers in this environment.. unimaginable. i am sure my 13 yr old will want to go live with her papa, he lets her do what she wants and doesnt beleive the bible either. thanks for listening.