Tina - posted on 09/05/2012 ( 11 moms have responded )
I have been struggling with depression my whole life it seems. I was abused by my mother, given up to foster care and then to a guardian none of those worked out.
I have lately been struggling with it a lot! I feel like what is the point in anything, cleaning, showering, going to school, getting out of bed, even eating.
There was and is a lot of changes going on in my life.
My husband just changed his career. He moved to another dealership and has been promoted to a Service Writer which is seems to be more promising financially but we will see.
I am unemployed and we are struggling financially, my in laws have been helping us out if we are short on bills so I am thankful for that.
My husband and I have been struggling with communication issues and lack of intimacy. I am totally insecure because of it and also because about a month ago he was talking to another woman at his old job. There was some flirting going on between them and my husband waited two weeks to tell me about it. He did say that he felt conviction and stopped talking to her and decided to tell me after he talked to three other people about it.
He told me she was pretty so he did not believe that she was flirting with him until a co worker told him knowing he is married and has a child with his wife that the other woman like likes him and is interested in him. After that he realized it was real and he contemplated going further with her if possible. He says he did not do anything and I want to believe him but I am not sure.
Now all we seem to do is argue and not listen to one another when we are talking. It is like we are roommates, recently he asked me if I want to separate. I told him no but it was up to him and he was not sure. We went out on a date after that so like two days ago and he said he didnt want to but on our date we seemed to be ok with communication but then we started arguing off and on.
I feel like everything is crumbling like my life is being torn from me and I cannot do anything about it. We have been together for 9 years this past August 30th and married for 4 years this past Aug 30th.
I just do not know what to do anymore. I am so insecure and feel hopeless and helpless.
Has anyone else gone through this or does anyone have advice?
I only have one friend that I can turn to and she has encouraged me to not give up but I feel like sometimes that is the only option.