Summer - posted on 09/20/2009 ( 22 moms have responded )
As i was a child my family went to church off and on, when i was in my teens we stopped going so i wasn't raised in a big church/God filled home. Don't get me wrong i have a wonderful family who taught me right from wrong.I have good morals, i do my best to do the right thing. I don't have church going friends so when i bring God up they seem distant. Now that i am a adult and a new mother ( my son is 3 months) i want to start going and become a better christian. I want to raise my son as a christian. I'm just so use to not going to church i find sometimes i don't have motivation and i feel silly sometimes when i pray cuz i don't know if God is really listening. At church when they ask who wants to come to the front to speak to someone about becoming closer to God i want to but i feel like all eyes will be on me and i will be judged. I want the christian life, i just don'really know how.