Catheline - posted on 10/24/2009 ( 5 moms have responded )
I have been struggling and I am in desperate need of prayer. I was once a stay at home mom, but then my husband and I seperated for about 4 years. In that time I got a job and began a career. I also lost alot of the time I once had with my children. I kept telling myself that I had to work, I had to provide for them, which is true but this didn't keep me from feeling gulity. I try so hard to give my boys all of my attention, not missing any school functions, always helping with homework. And the weekends are all theirs. My husband and I have recently reconciled and are slowly working at building our relationship,and restablishing our trust for one another. He blames me for everything, even though he walked out and cleaned out our bank accounts. He calls me a bad mother because I continue to work. This only fuels the gulity I was already feeling. I know that whether or not this marriage works or ends in divorce, I'll continue to work. If I could stay home with my boys I would. I just do not trust our lives in my husbands hands. I just can't stop feeling this gulity feeling. We fight all the time about this issue. What can I do?