Lisa - posted on 12/16/2011 ( 44 moms have responded )
Confusion. Frustration. Feel like about to throw a towel.. finished! It hurts ! It hurt my trust repeatly over years!! I dont know what I should do??? My mind is overwhelmed with few choices I choose is to dump my husband or try working out?? I am so exhausted and not want to go through AGAIN! Sick feelings/emotions.
Just recently, I felt giving up my marriage and my husband confessed that he watched the porns repeat .... he doesnt stop. He relieved himself as well.. . we didnt have much sex, that I noticed lately.
First of all, years ago, He had the lust problems for women, even porns on websites.. then he molested one of my daughters.... he was removed fromour home-separated. He was in a jail for only one day, out and went to the court... he was charged with the condition and 2 years on probation.I was about filing the divorce with him but somehow God worked in my heart for the forgiveness. Before he moved back in , he had sex with two hookers....but I gave him the chance. we went to the counselling for few yrs...
Over years since we reconciled , he still does the porn websites. i told him that was wrong and he knew that. We went to the christian marriage sermon, christians retreats. I work alone for supporting my family, and he doesnt work at a real job for 16 yrs... i told him to getoff his butts to go and work to help supporting our living needs.. he sleeps in late, always. I started feeling fed up.
I work lot and sleep overnighty at work... thats why he peeked on the porn websites while i was not there at home. I feel very betrayed. Why should i stay with him? I dont deserve to that mess that my hsuband made over our marriage! I cant trust him again, cant! Over and over he hammered my trusts for years...i told him that he should stay the single and not marry me because he liked to do the things that hurt me lot , nonstop!
Any feedback or pray for me...