Tam - posted on 06/26/2010 ( 5 moms have responded )
Dearest friends and sweet ladies,
I am very sorry for the prolonged absence and beg your forgiveness. At first, I was ashamed to come back because I hadn't posted in a while but with the Father's help have overcome that. Serious questions still plagued me. It was a daily struggle with fear, doubt and second-guesses. In the meantime, I struggled to find what it was I was supposed to do (I had been fearing that I mistakenly taken on this role without Father's approval) and formed some physical, local bonds with some ladies from our church, joined a group here or there and have been keeping quite busy. It was also decided to bring my teenage daughter home (we began homeschooling her in January). And while I do not regret these other things, they were quite right (well, homeschooling my daughter is, but the rest...)
It is only through grace (and a dear friend in the form of Heather Hart) who granted an answer that she didn't know about. I had been praying for the Lord to show me what to do when Heather contacted me about the group. I thank the Lord for little confirmations every day and I thank Him for His goodness.
Pride and fear bound me for a period, yet after much prayer and consideration, I do feel that God's will is for me to be here at least for a little while longer.
There will, however, be some changes made. Minor changes, but changes geared toward making things flow more smoothly and timely. It is my hope that you will pray with me to make this group and outreach for all of us, so that we can grow in the Lord and reach out to the poor, the hungry, the lost.
I would also like to stop the page and start fresh. I am working on a date to begin anew with an actual book study. If you do not have the book, don't panic, there will be enough people who will and we want you involved in discussion. The book will be COVENANT by Kay Arthur. I did a study of it with some ladies at church and it has really enriched my own reading of the Word and impacted the way I intend to live. It convicted me on so many levels and yet encouraged me to really keep moving toward the Father. I sure hope (book or not) that you will join us in this study. I hope to have it started in another week or two.
In Christ's Love,
PS. Wow, the Lord is so incredible. In catching up and rereading some posts, I realize that the very things I was teaching were the things I struggled with and temporarily let have a hold on my life. Especially here in the past two weeks, once the decision was made to pick up the group again with the Father's direction it seemed like the enemy was doing all he could to make me take offense and be bound by anger. I hadn't put two and two together. Sunday we visited some friends and as we were leaving the house, they prayed for us and the term WARRIOR FAMILY came up and while I could imagine this for my husband and children (they are all active Martial artists) my brain forgot the spiritual side. This morning, while reading anew the posts on anger (in relation to the Armor study) and revisiting the past year, I realize that this study must have really upset the enemy because again, these were all the things I have struggled with greatly the past year--doubt, condemnation, anger. Again, please forgive this and pray that we can all remain strong and stand.