Pat - posted on 04/21/2011 ( 2 moms have responded )
Im pretty sure ive had this cross my mind before. i saw my counselor at church today(about once a month)..and she pointed out how i have a choice in ________(fill in the blank).
I can chose to eat or drink alcohol to dull my senses and not think about life, or turn to God and let Him work in me.
i can stare at tv(im not against tv but will spend a few hours staring at it)..or get to bed so i can wake up and spend time with God in the morning. so i can get to know Him better which will result in me trusting Him.
I can chose to keep going to the past or press on toward the future. i like the ESV version of philipians 3:13...but one thing i do, i press on thoward th goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. I may not have much, if any, control over what will come, I cant control if my oldest lets God back in her heart or if she will stay pure, all i can do is pray and example. i cant control if my husband will be a part of our little ones future, all i can do is be the best mommy I can and love them. i cant control if God is going to bring me a truly Godly man, all i can do is pray that i will begin to take care of myself and be healthy physically and mentally. if a man should be part of Gods plan, great, if not, i am taking care of myself anyway. i will chose to trust God. no, it may not always be easy because I want my way. i want the easy and lazy and just let the kids do whatever way, but I know God has called me to teach, to love. If i truly love them and want whats best, i will do what is right, even if it means me putting aside what i want to do. isnt that what parents do? I pray that i will learn to be selfless, not selfish. that i will do what is right.
Thanks, im sure i was rambling a bit, but hoping that someone might benefit from this. sometimes i feel so helpless, and truth is, i may not have a lot of choices, but i do have some. i also chose to trust God.