Dawn - posted on 04/12/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )
Who am I working for anyway?
Today was a very busy day for me. I went through my husbands entire wardrobe to get rid of things he and I both know he will never wear but doesn't have the time to purge because it is not very high on his priority to have a wardrobe free of clutter; that's one of my pet peeves not his. Anyway besides that I cleaned a couple of our bathrooms and washed windows and ceiling fans and vacuumed our bedrooms along with washing about 6 loads of laundry and cooking a very yummy healthy dinner for my family, coordinating the girls entry from school with snacks, homework and chores.... In the middle of all that I paused for a moment to recognize the fact that I was not upset as I would have been only a few months ago at the fact I was working so intensely knowing that I would not get the thank you or level of appreciation I felt matched the amount of sheer grit I had to put in. In that moment of thought I asked myself the question, "who am I working for anyway".
What was it that made me so upset in the past about doing something I love to do anyway. I'm an organizer, I love overhauling things so a lot of work is nothing for me. My mind goes into high gear, I shift into get-it-done and get-out-of-my-way mode, and when the work is done I feel a huge sense of satisfaction for a job well done. I know it won't stay that way and that I'll have to repeat the cycle again (hopefully not the closet cause my husband has a ridiculous amount of clothes for a man. I like to tell him that he really loves himself (smile).)
I realized in that moment of reflection the reason I'm not upset is because I've come to the realization that what I do and the way I do things is because I've learned to do everything as unto the Lord. When my focus is pleasing the Lord it takes all the pressure off my family to appreciate what I've done. It takes all the sting out of them missing the opportunity to recognize the beautiful results of my hard work. Don't get me wrong, they have their moments to love on me and show me they care. I'm just pressing the point that even if they never did again I'd be OK with what I do because in the end I know that I'm pleased and the Lord is pleased. Nothing else really should matter so much as to take away that joy from my life. ~ Dawn