Charla - posted on 08/10/2009 ( 11 moms have responded )
I have had 8 children,One who is with Jesus.ALl my children have left the nest so to speak except my 16 year old.I was in the hospital close to 2 months ago and was in ICU for 7 days and on life support for 4 days.Only the one out of 4 that are out of state came. I gave my entire life to raising my children,I never did drugs and have never drank, so I always wonder what did I do? "I loved them" I always feed them first and took care of them first. But now that I am not well they have all seemed to have fallin through the cracks of the earth. I need them so badly in my life right now. When my mama was in the hospital before she went home, I was 7 months pregnant and slept on the floor on an egg creat for 22 days. She was not perfect nor was I a perfect mom.But what did I do so wrong? I am soooo lonley.My 16 year old does NOT care as well.Should I just end my life as I have nothing else. I am in to much pain, I can't work, I can't sit in church,I closed up and have no one :O(.... I am new here and I hope that you do not mind me telling you all the truth about how I feel. I am 54 years old.