Liz - posted on 12/03/2011 ( no moms have responded yet )
hey everybody. heres a bit about me.
i am a 37-year-old first timer in the mom dept, and i am hoping that the fear of being too old to start this doesnt get in the way of my longtime desire to build a family. i am just past my first trimester, and am expecting a june 2012 bundle of joy. i am going to do everything within my power NOT to have a hospital birth. i want to have a home/water birth, completely natural. heres to hoping it goes well.
i have had some anxiety in this dept, because i was born premie, with asthma. had it my whole life. hope it doesnt get in the way of what i will need to do when the labor and birthing time comes.
i am an only kid, and have no parents left to speak of. lost my mom at nineteen. never knew my dad. i was "the mailmans kid", from what ive been told. grew up in kentucky, and was a lil hellcat when i was a teenager. couldnt wait to get out of this place. after mom died, i started to explore my gypsyfoot nature, trying to figure out what life was all about. i have wandered the US off and on since then, living out of cars, tents, and the like. i like the idea of communal living, and have tried it on several occasions, but it never lived up to my ideal. i have been searching for my tribe ever since mom died. --still searching.
i love body modification and body art. it was the self expression that got me through alot of my pain of grief and other big emotional milestones in my adult life. at one point i was hoping to have a complete body suit, but, i have had to slip into survival mode with my funds the past several years, and that dream doesnt seem so attainable or important to me now. i pretty well covered from head-to-toe, tho, and it gets more attention than i am comfortable with most of the time. my tattoos are very personal to me-- i am not an exhibitionist.
i have tried going to school to study human services and social work, and (finally) got finished with a two-year-degree. i enjoy helping people, but find it hard to work in the field when i get discriminated against for the way that i look.. i also consider myself to be an empath, and have done healing work with massage and reiki. some of my time on the road has been spent reading tarot cards for festivals. i love doing tarot. :)
i guess i walk to my own beat. :)
i have spent alot of my adult life going solo. traveled x-country by myself early on, and, while i love to be part of a group, i dont like being the center of attention.... i usually hang back in crowds and people-watch. if you are familiar with myers-briggs, i am considered to be an INFJ...
"The Sage (INFJ)" In general, INFJs are future oriented, and direct their insight and inspiration toward the understanding of themselves and, thereby, human nature. Their work mirrors their integrity, and it needs to reflect their inner ideals. Solitude and an opportunity to concentrate thoroughly on what counts most is important to them. INFJs prefer to quietly exert their influence. They have deeply felt compassion, and they desire harmony with others. INFJs understand the complexities existing within people and among them. They do not call a great deal of attention to themselves, preferring that their contributions speak for them. They are at their best concentrating on their ideas, ideals, and inspirations.
i like living as close to hippie ideals as possible- such as living simply, eating healthy, trying to keep my life clear of too many "things" and being aware of how i live impacts the space around me. i am a practicing buddhist, but i am not a purist in that regard. i also take from pagan thought/ritual, hindu mantra practice, and have gone back to the teachings of christ as well. i like to see the common thread in spirituality.
i have come back to kentucky after a recent six month trek on the road to the west coast and the soutwest. i had been hoping to find an intentional community to join in washington or oregon, and when that didnt happen, i tried to go back to root down in the mountains of the southwest that i fell in love with ten-plus years ago. it didnt work, and i came back to my old hometown after reconnected with an old friend that i had a huge crush on back in the day. i had only been back a month when i got pregnant. looks like i am going to have to learn to settle down for a bit.
anyway, thats probably more about me than you guys wanted to know. haha. i am looking forward to connecting with some like-minded souls out here in cyberspace, and hopefully gaining some support so i dont have to do this one "solo".... thanks ladies.