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If you were raped and a pregnancy resulted, what would you do? Would you keep this baby, put it up for adoption or would you have an abortion? Why?
When I was 16 years old I was abducted and repeatedly raped by a stranger. A pregnancy resulted. Not only was I just a kid and pregnant, but I was pregnant by a rapist. Every thought imaginable ran through my mind. What was I going to do? There was no one to help me, no one to turn to. I didn't have parents- I was a 'system baby', which is the slang term for kids who grow up in foster care, group homes and the like. Abortion was out of the question and because I knew what it was like to be abandoned, I couldn't give in to the pressure of putting the baby up for adoption (I don't think all adopted kids feel abandoned and I don't think putting a baby up for adoption means you've abandoned them. This was just how my 16 year old mind was processing these emotions at that moment.). I was keeping this baby. MY baby. How this baby came to be didn't matter. All that mattered was that it was mine and I was going to give it the life I was robbed of. I would love this child with every fiber of my being and never faulter.
In the end, I miscarried. It killed me for people to tell me 'it was for the best' and that I was 'better off'. I loved my baby, regardless of circumstance, and I chose to be a mother. From the moment I made that choice I was forever connected to this baby and will forever love this baby. MY baby, alone. Still.