quit patting me on the head gently with words I am not a child.

Gemma - posted on 05/09/2011 ( 3 moms have responded )

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it is who I am and who we are and some special challenges taht we face- it is a realyity we face some darn big challenges. in addition to the fact that our kids are prettymuch healthy- itis a question of when to ask for help since I am so stubborn and self sufficient. or I get told often there are people worse off than me. - I get tired of some comments I get even from my own mother. like bite through it , or that I am too sensitive to pain- a midwife told me the exact opposite- I have a high tolerance of pain( after I had my csection/tubes tied.) the last pregnancy I have only felt like Iwas patted on the head and not taken seriously- then my son after two month has started a whole rollercoaster of diagnostic issuse of his own. my daughter in contrast is showing signs of being understimulated- and advanced for her age. I don't have a clear idea anymore what a healthyfouryear old does. or I get told that I am putting too much pressure or that I am bragging of certain things. i hate when people don't take mme seriously because of my CP. it is bad enough I have the hearing and speech difficulties. I speak two languages. and I did pass my goethe certificate for my german language on the first try- so I know I am not stupid. what I want to know is why is it bugging me so much now. I have had CP all my life. have battled being bullied batled depression, learned a language,taught in africa, and now I am raising two kids. Iwould love to become a teacher especially that of ESL. but the feedback I am getting is rather frustrating and confusing. but I am also told that isso important to be home when the kids are going through school. it is so worthwihile for the kidsand it has nothing to do with having a disability to be bound home more- the kids need a mom to come home to with a warm lunch to fill thier tummies ( we have a two hour lunch break here where kids come home). enough of my rant. how about you.

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Gemma - posted on 05/14/2011

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well I know I am smart the trick is getting other people to see how smart I am.

Cynthia - posted on 05/11/2011

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Hello Gemma,

I'm glad i saw you r post today bc i know a lot about cp. my sister has lived with it all her life which is 28 years. i know there are challanges that most people dont understand and i know it can get you down and make you question yourself. its all part of the disability. and it sucks. but you know it isnt who you are. you are Gemma, not cp. for a lot of people it is hard to see past the cp to the heart of the person living with it. I know my siter is different because of her cp but i know my sister Misty the girl. i hope you understand what i'm trying to say. remember who you are and dont worry about what people think because they dont know. i believe you are very smart. probley smarter then me and i dont have cp. i hope we can get to know each other better here at com. i think it is awesome that you are home with your kids but it is also important that you do what makes you happy. my motto is, if it makes you happy, do that. keep your head up. you can do anything.

Shannintipton - posted on 05/11/2011

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Hi Gemma,
This is all good stuff to let out. Did feel even a little bit better after writing that. I hope you did. This is suppose to be a place to talk freely and vent all you want. No judgment here. You are very smart. Which you probably already know. :) I am really happy you found it to this community. Our hours are a little . . . okay a lot different. But that is okay. I just wish I had something good to tell you. That is why I rely on jokes. Thanks for the joke by the way. Talk to you soon. {:+)

Gemma - posted on 05/09/2011

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I forgot to mention- with all the language issues it is pretty lonely here. and I realy wish I could see people more often as I am such a social person- I resent not being able to drive. ( driving to me is a privilage that comes with earning money- i don't earn the money so I don't have for gas insurance etc. but I am smart enough to pass the learners liscence with 96% on the first try back home in canada. I could just imaginge how much wider my job prspects would be if I could drive. the ability to bring the kids places to visit friends , to go to dr appointments, the list goes on. you would think that ifeel a bit trppaed in my own body lately. let alone feeling a bit isolated. in a little town in the middle of nowhere.