Jessica - posted on 09/15/2011 ( 2 moms have responded )
I have a son born Jan 2010 and I have been struggling with this feeling for a while now. I labored with him for 13 hours and was only a 4 before the Dr said I needed a c-section. They monitored my contraction internally for an hour before coming to this decision and they said my contractions were strong enough to allow for progression but I stayed at a 4. I could even feel them through my epidural. For some reason deep down inside I feel as if I rushed into the decision to have a c-section (my emotions were out of control). I can't help but read these stories of other mothers who went through what they call "birth rape" or birth on their schedules and for some reason I feel that I went through that as well. Because of this I feel as if I failed as a woman being unable to birth her child naturally. I want to do a VBAC with my next but my husband thinks I should just go for the planned c-seciton. Is there anyone else who has experienced this & how did you cope with these feelings.