Gemma - posted on 11/17/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )
Ive just found out that im expecting baby number 2!
I know i should be feeling excited and happy, but im really not! I actually feel pretty sad...
I thought i wanted another baby but now im not so sure. I love our little family of three and im terrified i wont ever be able to love anyone else the way i love my DS. I feel so guilty for feeling this way...
Im scared that i wont be able to cope with two babies and im already feeling guilty about the fact that my time is going to be shared between DS and a new baby. (ive only just been to my docs and admitted that i have PND so this has thrown me up in the air)
I always wanted to have two children, i loved having my brother around when i was growing up and i wanted the same for DS. But im now not sure if i just wanted a baby so my son could have a playmate or if i actually wanted another child to enhance my already beautiful family..
Im so confused... maybe im still in shock.