Elizabeth - posted on 04/12/2010 ( 6 moms have responded )
So I've had a high risk pregnancy due to low amniotic fluid. It had gone up and everything looked great. Then at my sono last Wednesday it had gone down quite a bit again and my obgyn said if it still is this week then she is inducing me. I had my regular appt this morning and the amount of contractions was ridiculus( I have a non-stress test each week) while on the monitor. I've been having contractions for 2 months now and they are increasing as well as getting more painful. Though I have a sono on Wednesday, she went ahead and did one herself. The fluid has gone up a little but she said she still will want to induce to prevent it from going any lower. She also discussed the labor. She said our daughter looks amazing but since there has been low fluid she can't say that the baby will do well with a vaginal birth. She is going to let me try but chances are high I will end up having a C-section. I'm 37 weeks btw with my first baby.
I loath the idea of a C-section. I'm almost 25 so I'm still young and have always been thin/fit and love wearing a bikini. I don't want a disgusting, noticable scar on my stomach or to lose all my muscle tone. I've always had naturally toned abs and work out to make them even better. I've heard having a C-section can make you never have tone again and I've seen pictures of tummys looking saggy and wrinkled like a 80 year old woman's would and that also makes me sick to my stomach. Also, the thought of being cut open and my tummy being peeled back freaks me out to the point of an anxiety attack. I'm so unhappy/scared right now.
Any advice on how to prepare for a C-section if it happens(which it probably will)? How do I get past the anxiety? How do I avoid post-partdum(sp?) depression because of my unhappiness over having something I don't want? How do I not lose all my self esteem from the scar and possible loss of muscle tone I've always been proud of having?
I'm a complete mess and need help!!! I only will have untill Thursday or Friday to get ready for this and that's just a few days away :( :( :(