Lauren - posted on 11/08/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
I'm single and going to be a first time mom soon (due 2/10/10). I have been feeling very stressed and have a lot of anxiety about doing this all by myself. Just thought this might be a good place to discuss this topic with other's who are in the same boat.
I have always wanted children badly but wanted to wait until I met the man of my dreams and got married. Ha! I have learned that things don't always happen as we plan them. I got pregnant by my ex after we had broken up and moved on so he didn't want the baby from the beginning since he has a new girlfriend and new life in another state. I decided to keep the baby and knew I would have to do it all on my own and was completely fine with that when I made the decision. It just seems to get harder to come to terms with the fact that he could treat me and his unborn child (first child too) as if we don't exist in order to salvage his relationship with his current girlfriend. I find myself so upset and bitter toward him, and no matter how much I try not to think about it, I grow to hate him more and more each day. I really want to be stress free for my baby and I'm afraid this anger toward him is stressing me out too much. I am also confused as to how I am supposed to act once our first child is born and he decides he wants to be involved and has left me to do it all by myself up to that point. Anyway, most importantly, I thought this would be the most joyous time of my life, being pregnant with my first child, but I find myself so full of anxiety about the future that it scares me to death. Thinking about how drastically life will change, how I will loose all my freedom, and how scary it is to know that I have absolutely no help with anything,
Can anyone relate to these feelings of anxiety, and how do you move past them to be filled with nothing but joy and excitement?!?