Nellie - posted on 10/21/2010 ( 1 mom has responded )
My daughter is 4 months old and it's been complete hell breastfeeding from day one for many reasons. One of them was I wasn't roducing enough and whenever my milk got down low, my daughter, Kayla, would refuse the breast. So, I started supplementing when she ws a little under a month old. During this, I pumped like crazy, drank gallons of water, and took don paradon to boost my supply. A little more then a month later, I was able to cut formula out 100% so Kayla didn't go near a bottle for almost two months. Now my supply has dropped again, and I mean nosedived. I think it's due to my financial situation: stress plus not being able to eat as much as I should. I try and try and try to breastfeed Kayla, but sheis starving and has to eat so I've tried to supplement again. Only this time, she refuses.I've gone several hours trying to get her to eat from the bottle but shewon't no matter what I do. I am a single mom doing this completely solo, I have no one who can come and help. After having my baby girl cry for several hours 'cause she was starving and was refusing both breast and bottle (whenever my supply gets to low she won't go near the breast) I force her to eat. Twice a day now I spend two hours each squirting a tiny bit of formula into her mouth at a time. Two hours at least, sometimes it takes longer. And the entire time Kayla is screaming. I feal like the worst mother in the entire world! I ot a percription from the doctor to boost my milk but can't get it until I get paid, I'm pumping but only to try to boost my supply 'cause I aint getting anything. I feel like I am the absolute worst parent ever! I m forcing my daughter to eat and she hates it! I just want to break down and start myself when she's crying because Mommy is forcing her to eat this yucky gross liqued.