Kristina - posted on 10/03/2009 ( 1 mom has responded )
God has been pressing a message on my heart that I feel I need to share. I pray that this message touches your heart in a way that you will understand, and I pray that it brings you closer to God and that it open your eyes, not to see from man’s view but so you can see yourself from God’s point of view. In Jesus name Amen!
Well I am not going to lie I WAS in a really dark place in my life, something I would, now, not wish on anyone. The question I found myself asking the most was why me God? What did I do to deserve this?... I knew I was not the worst person in the world, so I tried to blame my problems on everyone else not knowing I was letting the devil play games with me. I felt like it was their fault I was feeling the way I did… like it was their fault the words I was speaking were beginning to become true….. You might feel… but they did this to me (whatever it is) and you are probably right, they did, but there is no point dwelling on something they did to you when they probably don’t even care they did it. It’s hard and i understand that you cannot control what someone else does to you but you can defiantly control how you react to the situation. I had to realize not matter what anyone did to me I could handle it only because of God and I realized that God has nothing but hope and love for you and me and when we search for God with all of our hearts he will bring us back from our pain, our hurt, our suffering, and our hatred. So ultimately the choice is up to you, you can choose to act godly or you can choose to act ungodly. Which brings this scripture to mind 1 Corin 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. So another words not matter the temptation God is faithful and will not let you be tempted beyond what you can resist. I heard this from a Pastor I listen to and it hit home for me because not a lot of people understand this. When God says don’t sin it is not because he is trying to keep you from having some “glorious experience”, it is because he does not want you to end up getting hurt. I mean if you really think about it, all the temptations that people go through, they never lead to anything good…. It always leads to something bad, something that was never supposed to happen, people we were never supposed to hurt, and feelings we were never supposed to feel. For me looking at temptation this way, it clears a lot of things up, it makes my decision to be a godly person a lot easier. I’m not say that I have never been tempted or that I have not fallen into temptation, God know that I have. But I let it happen; I chose to feel helpless, and to just let myself fall deeper into the dark and in a way not wanting to get out and that’s what hurts the most today…. Looking back at everything that I let the devil do to me, it makes me upset. Because I was so easily tempted by something that hates me and wants nothing but death for me and is trying to get me away from my savior Jesus Christ so that he can consume my life with Fornication, Jealousy, Stealing, Lying, and Hatred. These things have never leaded to anything good. And it is about time that we realize that the devil hates us and wants to bring death and destruction to our lives and realize our heavenly Father loves us and wants us to spend eternity in heaven with him and his son. So tell me who do you want to serve? Why keep risking your life for something that hates you why not live your life for our creator who loves you.