Six Years

Maribeth - posted on 10/06/2009 ( 5 moms have responded )

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Six years, and still I grieve my dad. I was definitely a "daddy's girl". Although he passed in May, this time of the year is the hardest for me because he loved the Christmas holiday. He was THE one who made Christmas in our home. My sister is 13 years younger than me, so our holidays were always Mom, Dad, and me Christmas morning. Dad made Christmas magical. The Christmas after he passed, I would start to cry just driving past houses that were decorated outside, and forget hearing Silent Night being sung at church Christmas Day. I can at least go past houses without crying, although I still do get a lump in my throat. And I can at least sit through Silent Night, (clenching my teeth and squeezing my toes in my shoes), but I don't think I will ever be able to sing it again. I was just saying to my husband tonight that I want to decorate the inside of our house for Halloween. He always does the outside ( he loves to decorate for Halloween) - but I want to go under our house and pull out the window clings, door decorations, etc. I haven't decorated since the year my dad was sick right before he died. I said maybe I would even put up the little Hallmark Christmas tree this year. Since Dad died, I just haven't been able to really get in the Christmas spirit, even though we do put up a tree every year. Maybe this year I'll be able to do it.

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Marilyn - posted on 03/19/2010

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My dad died about ten years ago just after Christmas on the 27th of Dec in 2000. We had to have the funeral quickly due to the holidays, So we buried him on New Years Eve, did not really grieve then it was a year later when I had my first son that it hit me that my son not going to ever meet my father his gran-dad. his gran-father that is still alive is a kind man but he does not spend time with the kids or play with them or have interest in small children, while my dad loved sport, loved life. I still miss him a lot and it not getting better, there is regret and guilt about the last time I see him but I tell them about my father like what he liked and what he would say, I encourage the boys to explore all sports to find one that they like and to try everything once. Sometimes I just wish...

Maribeth - posted on 10/08/2009

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Good luck with the holidays Shari. You'll do it for your children!

Maribeth - posted on 10/08/2009

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Thanks LaMay. I will keep that in mind!

Sheri - posted on 10/07/2009

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Maribeth, I completely understand! I lost my mom in August 2004 an holidays are still really tough for me. Even my birthday is kinda sad because I know my mom is not here to share it with me. I think it is great that you are sloowly moving towards decorating the house for the holidays! Just do what you can and put on a happy face for your children! I know it can be soo hard to do! I just think to myself that just because I am sad an miss my mother, doesn't mean I should jip them of the holiday memories, so I grin and bear it! I think your dad would want you to make memories with your children just like he id with you an your family! Hope this helps a little!

LaMay - posted on 10/07/2009

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Hi Maribeth,



I am proud of you! This is progress as far as I'm concerned, you are considering doing something that you haven't done in six years! This is huge, I want you to Remember and I quote "Dad Made Christmas Magical" I encourage you to do the same for your family, Make it Magical Maribeth in remembrance of your Dad, this is what he would want!! Good luck, keep me posted and thank you!



Regards,

LaMay