Maribeth - posted on 10/06/2009 ( 5 moms have responded )
Six years, and still I grieve my dad. I was definitely a "daddy's girl". Although he passed in May, this time of the year is the hardest for me because he loved the Christmas holiday. He was THE one who made Christmas in our home. My sister is 13 years younger than me, so our holidays were always Mom, Dad, and me Christmas morning. Dad made Christmas magical. The Christmas after he passed, I would start to cry just driving past houses that were decorated outside, and forget hearing Silent Night being sung at church Christmas Day. I can at least go past houses without crying, although I still do get a lump in my throat. And I can at least sit through Silent Night, (clenching my teeth and squeezing my toes in my shoes), but I don't think I will ever be able to sing it again. I was just saying to my husband tonight that I want to decorate the inside of our house for Halloween. He always does the outside ( he loves to decorate for Halloween) - but I want to go under our house and pull out the window clings, door decorations, etc. I haven't decorated since the year my dad was sick right before he died. I said maybe I would even put up the little Hallmark Christmas tree this year. Since Dad died, I just haven't been able to really get in the Christmas spirit, even though we do put up a tree every year. Maybe this year I'll be able to do it.