Amanda - posted on 07/29/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
My mom passed away December 14, 2009, almost 8 months ago. I am still crying every day and feel so broken inside. I can't seem to get past all this hurt and sadness. I miss her so much, she was my best friend and such a wonderful person. She was my three children's last living grandmother and was very involved with them, so I hurt for them as well. I find myself daily wanting to call her and tell her stories about the things the kids do or say that she would get a kick of, but I can't. I need to talk to her and get her advise and tell her gossip that we always shared, but I can't. I feel such a loss from my life and I don't know how to get past that, because it will never again be as it was. I seems like every event will always be shadowed with sadness because of her absence. I see other mothers with adult daughters and I am so envious and mad at the same time. Lately I have been day dreaming about going back in time to relive life with her again, silly, I know it is just a fantasy. Any thoughts? Thanks, it does help to get it out to others that might know what I am going through.