Shannintipton - posted on 01/08/2012 ( 10 moms have responded )
As of recently, I have put myself into some ...........sticky situations. More than one. It seems to be a pattern with me. I dont want to go into details about those but say that I was in the wrong. I will be the first to admit that.
What I do want to explain is how or why this happens. My general personality is to try and be funny. I say inappropriate things sometime while trying to get a laugh. I am generally kidding and almost NEVER try to offend. However if I do get into it with someone, I do tend to hit below the belt. My temper gets the better of me. MOST of the time I end up regretting it and end up having to tell the person what I did. Sometimes it is out of guilt and afraid they are going to find out anyway. So I would rather they hear it from me.
But this has led to people thinking I am two faced. If I run across someone that rubs me the wrong way I will always try to make the best of it. I will try to be nice. Yes even if I dont like them and they are in my community I dont see the need to be rude. Doesnt not mean I hate them. It just means they bug me. Just like I bug others even though they really dont know me. Lets face it. This is a big place not everyone is going to get along.
But then there may come a time when I am being pushed to the limit and can no longer hold it in. I EXPLODE. I lash out and may say some hurtful things. But usually because I feel like I have been wronged in some way. So what I feel is that I am damned if I do and damned if I dont.
Meaning just because I am nice to someone that has pissed me off that is considered two faced. I am not sure what I am suppose to do about it. I guess I need to work on it. I also think it is possible to get pissed at someone and get into a major fight and then move past it. I dont like to hold grudges. I have gotten into fights with some of my best friends on here. I dont like to write people off just because I am pissed at them or we get into a fight. I would hope others would not want to write me off either because of a major fight.