Tamara - posted on 07/05/2011 ( 7 moms have responded )
I really hate the 4th of July really really hate the fireworks.
17 years ago my asshat ex got married on the 4th, our thing was to go and set off fireworks with the boys and his little sister while we watched the fireworks from the race track. Well we divorced 3 months later (we were together for a total of 2 years) because I found out he beat my son, he was 2 at the time, gave him a kidney blow now he has minor kidney issues. We haven't seen or spoke to him in 6.5 years.
So all the rest of the year I don't even think about him unless one of the boys want to talk about him or what he did to them. But on the 4th right before the fireworks all the anger just creeps up and I just want to kill him. then it takes a few days to let it go and that part of life gets back to normal. Hopefully venting and bitching about it will help get there sooner :)
Alin has worked through everything and is now officially a survivor Jeffery well he has his days when he is a survivor and days when he uses what happens to him as an excuse to cause problems, so we are working on that together.
This year I missed the fireworks since I had to take Jeff to the ER so its not near as bad as it usually is. Still a little anger toward him for violating my babies just not as much.
Anywhos thanks for listening I hope in the morning all is well with my anger and I can set him back in the trash where he belongs.