Approaching due date.

Jessie - posted on 01/17/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )

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hey everyone i'm not sure if people still look at this site. i had a miscarriage in july and am rapidly approaching my would of been due date in february. i thought by now i could be a little better about this. my husband recently deployed before christmas to iraq for his 3rd tour and i'm finding myself thinking more and more about my angel as i approach the date. will it ever get easier? a lot of my friends have found out they are having babies and i am finding it so hard to be happy for them. this makes me feel guilty i know sometimes things just happen and most of the time there's a reason for everything and god has a plan for everyone and everything that happens but i still feel it's so unfair! i've got a 2 year old son who is the light of my life and even though i have him i'm still finding it so hard! does anyone have any advice of any kind? i'm trying to keep myself busy with things since my husband is deployed but sometimes i just cannot shake this feeling and this hurt? it shattered me when i lost my angel and i am still trying to pick up those pieces and put them back together.

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Jessie - posted on 11/25/2010

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I am very sorry for your loss. Since this post, one of my best friends has become pregnant and it may sound really weird, but it took her getting pregnant to help me deal with my loss. I think it is because they tried for over a year to get pregnant and the doctors told her she had a very slim chance of ever conceiving again, but they beat the odds without hormone therapy so it truly is a miracle. i have come to realize that everything happens for a reason and maybe God needed my Angel for something much more important. I truly believe my Angel is just that, my Angel watching over his or her parents and big brother making sure we are all safe. Keeping his or her daddy safe while he is deployed to Iraq. Everything happens for a reason and I thin about my angel every day but i am starting to find peace. i hope you find peace as well. it helps to know you are not alone and one of my lifelong friends just lost her baby at 16 weeks which i couldn't imagine. she went in to find out the sex of her baby and at her u/s the baby had no heartbeat. so i realize that even though i lost my angel, i am thankful that it was early on. i am excited but nervous to try again, but my husband has been gone for 1 year and will be home in 2 weeks, we are not 'trying' just seeing what happens.

Stacey - posted on 11/25/2010

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wow and just read the date this was a year ago how are you doing now

Stacey - posted on 11/25/2010

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i also had a miscarriage in july my due date would have been jan 15th.. I think about my angel every day and have been trying to think of something we could do for the babys due date cuz it should have a day.. people think im crazy cuz at times i still cry and most think i should be over it but it takes every one a diff amount of time. and no one is going to get over a death of a child.. thats what i wish my family would get after the lost of my baby the two girls that i work with told me they were both going to be having babies abour 3 months after my baby was gone.. i to felt this was very un fair.. and no watching them grow... its hard... we are going to try again soon... and thats scary also.. but worth it.. i wish i could give you great advice but im still going threw the pain my self.. maybe try and make the due date special by doing something.. dont feel guilty that you friends our haveing babies its normal to feel up set cuz you should be having one two i soo get that! keepping busy is good i find my self crying the most when im just at home by my self. take care!