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Hayley - posted on 10/30/2011 ( 3 moms have responded )

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Talking about things always helps so this is my story. At 23 I unexpectedly fell pregnant. It was a shock but we were over the moon. My cousin & 2 friends were also expecting & we were all due within a few months of each other. Being our first & so young we had little knowledge on micarriage & announced to everyone when I was only 6wks before having any scans done. The heartbeat was very weak & getting worse. 1 day I work I started spotting & I knew that was it. I was 14wks, at that scan I measured only 9wks & the heartbeat had stopped. I cried the whole way home & waited for my partner to arrive. It was like my heart & had been ripped out. Over the next few hours I got really heavy bleeding & cramps so bad they made me cry. I took a week off work & cried everyday. My partner couldn't quite understand why I was so upset but dealing with the loss together was one thing but we had already told everyone we were expecting. Sending out that message to everyone telling them the sad news was so hard, I just wanted everyone to know & then never speak about it again (out of sight out of mind i guess). I didn't want to see or hear anything about my cousin or friends pregnancies either. Everyday it got slightly easier to see people again but I still wouldn't talk about it for ages. We knew we definitely wanted a baby after that & tried for another baby after waiting 3 months. It was such a scary time, all the feelings came rushing back & what if it didn't work again. I had scans at 6wks, 9wks & 11wks just to be sure before we told anyone. It has now been 5yrs since my miscarriage and I have gone on to have 3 healthy children, but I always think about my angel baby. I now have a few friends that have also miscarried & sharing my experience with them helped ease their pain a little. It helps to talk about things so lets share our stories.

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Bella - posted on 03/09/2015

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Sarah - posted on 04/19/2012

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I have two children and in 1998, I had an ectopic pregnancy. I didn't know I was pregnant, and though I was having a bad period pain (pretty normal for me) My husband was a little more concerned as I was rolling around the bed clasping my stomach, and took me to A&E (Accident and Emergency) They did a pregnancy test there, and told me the result, and also not to get my hopes up, as it was unlikely the pregnancy would progress. This was on Wednesday. After a series of cock ups, including putting me in a room full of pregnant women waiting for scans, they finally operated on Friday morning and removed the fetus and fallopian tube. I spent a few days in hospital, and spent most of those crying.

We had planned to have more children, but the whole idea of being pregnant again scared me so much. My doctor told me they would be looking out for any problems in my next pregnancy and in July 2000 I became pregnant again.

This time I miscarried. The hospital confirmed there was no heartbeat at about 6 weeks, and sent me home to miscarry there. That was very hard, and I spent days just crying. I was just numb, and don't really remember much about this loss at all.

I became pregnant again in October 2000, and my doctor sent me for an early scan. They confirmed the baby had made it to the right place, there was a strong heartbeat, and no reason as to why the pregnancy shouldn't go full term. I was overjoyed. We were finally going to have our longed for third child. 24 hours later, the familiar pains started, and I ended up doubled over with the pain, and once again in A&E waiting to see a doctor. It was ectopic again. The doctor apologised for the error the day before. An operation to remove the fetus and repair the tube was only partly successful. The fetus was removed, but they couldn't save my last tube. I was devastated. No tubes meant no more pregnancies. I cried for months, developed depression and ended up on 'happy pills'

It has now been over 11 years since my last loss, and I will never forget my three angel babies.

Lindsey - posted on 12/19/2011

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Hayley

Thank you for sharing. I really believe that talking and sharing helps in the healing process.

My husband and I have a beautiful son who was born January 2010. We decided to have another baby and became pregnant in July of this year. On October 4, I started bleeding lightly and on the advice of a friend I went to the emergency room. The doctor said he didn't think it was anything to worry about, but he gave me antibiotics for a UTI and sent me home. The bleeding continued into the next day, and then the cramping started. The following evening my husband and I went back to the emergency room. I miscarried at the ER that night.

It was the most devastating experience. I cried for days on end. I didn't want to talk to anyone, and felt as though I was completely alone. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I felt as though I wanted to die and be with my angel. My husband was a great support, but I knew he didn't understand the full impact the loss had had on me.

But, in talking to friends and family, I was shocked by the number of people who had had miscarriages. Both of my next door neighbors, my sister (I already knew about that), my SIL, and countless other friends and family. I realized then that I wasn't alone, that other people had gotten through it and went on to have healthy pregnancies. That has helped a lot.

Also, I believe that my baby just simply wasn't ready to come into this world at this time. I know that someday, he or she will be ready, and I will be ready too.

Anyhow, it's been over two months since that night. I still hurt and I still cry, but it's getting easier every day. Talking helps. Time heals.

We're already trying again. Some people might think it is to soon, but my husband and I are ready. We want another little one so badly, and we just don't want to wait any longer.

It's not easy though. I still have mixed emotions. I'm afraid that it could happen again, and that I wouldn't be able to handle another loss. I am excited about the idea of having another baby. I am worried about how much I might stress out if we did become pregnant. And I stress out about not getting pregnant.

But, I know that whatever happens, I'll get through it okay. I have my son to keep me going, and a little angel watching over us.

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